1) Solve for x.
4.4x+6.2=8.8x-1.8
easy, x=1 9/11
math is easy
agreed?
agreed.
if only everything were east as math
(or easy as my 8th grade algebra)
several things going on right now, and i need to address them right here
right now
i've been putting this off for far too long
my problem is that i have absolutely no motivation
none whatsoever
and whenever i try, like putting a reward, such as a concert, or a trip to six flags, or a new CD
that object becomes meaningless to me
completely meaningless
soo....i haven't been getting all the homework done i should be
i come home, get something to eat, start my homework, get bored, go on the computer, call my friend, go to sleep
that same pattern, every singe night
(more on that will be added later on)
so i've been getting around 1/3 of my homework done each night
sooo because of this, my grades haven't been too great
hmm...
so i also went to conferences with the teachers, ya know?
they all said the same thing
they think i have loads of potential and that i am really smart
i just need to get more homework done
seems nice of them, right?
wrong
they say the exact same thing to everyone else who doesn't do their homework, i've seen them, and heard them, when i tell my parents
they don't believe me
but whatever, there's more on my mind than just school
i come home do the same thing each night, wake up and continue doing the same thing
i can't stand it
this is the thing driving me most insane
i need change
i need to be free to change things
i want to switch things
i HATE doing the same thing day after day after day, it's so boring
i want to go out
and not have to put up with the same thing day after day
that's not going to happen
ever
not to mention, i kinda hate this stupid gaia journal thing
it makes me sounds like such a negative b***h
'cause whenever i post here, it's probably venting
and at school, i'm a happy and hyper and talkative person
you'd never guess that i've put all this
or so that's what a few of my friends have told me
*sigh*
onwards
alsoo...hmm...
okay so
i have this friend, and he's really sweet
and we talk on the phone like every night, 'cause he's in the highschool and i'm still in middle school, to be freed at the end of the year hopefully
so we talk on the phone every night
and at the end of the conversation we say goodnight and other stuff (not to be mentioned here) and starting about a week ago, we stopeed saying that and the conversations are boring and short
but....since friday.... he hasn't been calling
and he knows very well i'm not the type of person to call someone first
i'm just not like that, ya know?
so...i've kinda been upset about that ...
.........
i think i have addressed most everything
except the hormones
there's nothing that i can say that i hate more than hormones
well
so
there's another guy.....and.....i think i love him....he's so nice and caring... he doesn't much care about himself either...he puts others first always
even though it might get the slightest bit annoying
i love him for it
he's just so caring and doesn't care who you are or what you believe, even if it's different from him
he'll still be as nice as you can
and you can't say that about very many people....at all
and.....i have gotten the pleasure to meet him and become close to him
(if you're reading this, you know who you are heart )
he means the world and more to me
getting to talk to him...even for a minute...can make the worst day in the world all better
the only problem is
he lives so far
and it's rare that i get to talk to him any more
maybe 2 or 3 times a week
and lately....it's been driving me insane
no one could ever replace him and i know that he will forever be remembered
but the distance is killing me and i'd give the world to see him
but over all
i want nothing more than for him to be happy
he deserves it more than anyone i know, and anyone i've ever met
but here's the bigger problem with that
there's a guy in my class that vaguely reminds me of him
just something about them is the same
and we're pretty great friends
not for that reason, just that we always have been
and lately
i've been wanting to get so close to him
but i've wanted to stay away even more
and i think it confuses him
'cause i think that he has noticed how.....bipolar i've been acting towards him
and i hate it
he doesn't deserve that
he's a great person also
(although not as great as the first....he's still pretty great)
hmm.....so like....i guess that's about it
i'll probably add more in time
another long and boring post from yours truly
erin
 erinus is god · Tue Oct 09, 2007 @ 01:31am · 0 Comments |
