warning
emo journal entry
please don't read if you're just gonna be rude
mm'kay?
thanks
it's spring break finally
all my friends are gone places and i'm not
not that i really care, i'm glad i don't have to go anywhere
but my friends aren't here
(gabe you are and i love you and you know that but it's not like you'd be able to come over or anything)
so it's just boring
and i know i'll just be laying around the whole time
'cause it's colder than cold outside
and my boyfriend is goin to michigan with his neighbor/friends
he's going with his friends from school who live like 2 houses away from him
and the chick that's our age is like super gorgeous and thin and she could model, i swear it
i know that i'm not ugly, and i'm not really fat but still...
and she and him have alot in common, kind of, they're both pretty ....athletic? idk, they do alot, they're active
and i know for a fact that she doesn't like him, but idk
and i'm almost sure that he won't cheat on me
but
i'm nervous
and he came over yesterday, we basically just watched movies and it was really cool
but i'm gonna miss him so much
and he said that they'd have internet there
but he emailed me today
and they don't
so i won't be able to talk to him till monday probably because i was gonna go to the scholastic bowl tournament which is next saturday (he is coming home for it 'cause they're both in it) but i'm not allowed to go
and they're leaving the school at like 5:30am and getting back around midnight
but i'm not allowed to go this time
so i won't see him
and sunday? idk, i just know i won't see him
so he's gonna be gone forever
and i'm gonna miss him waaay too much
and then i have an uncle and he's incredibly sick
today he's just completely unresponsive
his kidneys have been failing for a while so he's been on dialysis
but for the last like 2 days he's been on it the whole time
and something else about his blood i can't remember
and he's just been in really crappy condition for about the past 8 months
he's lived lots longer than they thought before
but now his health is declining rapidly
he's just been moved to another hospital
(like an hour ago)
and they honestly don't know if he's gonna get better
they said that his body is just kinda stopping
and he's always been such a nice and generous man
and...i'm just really worried about him
they don't know how long he's got
i just don't think that it's very long
=/
soo yeah
crappy week
 erinus is god · Sun Mar 09, 2008 @ 07:22pm · 1 Comments |
