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Wow.
A lot has been going on.
Today? Well Joey came over to study for the ACT tomorrow and all that.
Main thing?
Cop came.
Seems like someone finally got the ******** clue that I am being abused and stalked! mad
WTF took them so long?
******** bitches.
Then again, why the hell should I care? Need to learn to keep it to myself more.
Not like anyone is going to care.
Do anything.
They just look away.
They always do.
Police, Teachers, parents, FRIENDS.
I know one friend who cares.
And I'll give the police some credit.
They came, checked it out, changed my cell number for me.
No choice.
PD made me, but that's a good thing. Maybe now I won't wake up to a death threat and a missed call from 12:31 A.M.
********.
I'm pissed, I need to calm down. My fault. Need to keep it to myself.
So why am I typing this?
s**t.
I'm doing it again.
And I'm not stopping. I'm still doing it.
Is this going to be like my journal? How I would write and write about all the s**t that happens to me?
Why can't I just learn to keep it to myself?
I never do. I always have to slide a remark into the conversation.
Quick.
Glance.
Did they hear me?
Did they care?
******** No.
Why they hell did I even try?
Not like they care.
Why should they?
not there problem.
I'm just trying to make it there's.
No I'm not.
Yes I am.
No I'm not.
Yes, you are.
No I'm not.
Yes you are.
No, I'm not trying to make it there problem.
Yes, it's your personal life. Keep it that way.
But I need help.
******** THAT s**t! Like anyone will give a DAM!
Someone will make it stop.
NO ******** WAY! It's your own problem, your own fault, you want to know who's going to make it stop? YOU ARE!
But I can't.
Yes you can. Suck it up.
I've tried, I can't do it.
What kind of p***y are you? Just beat the mother ******** hell out of him.
But I don't want to, I don't want to hurt him.
He hurts you.
But.. that's different.
So you want someone else to hurt him? RIGHT? how is that different?
I.. .I don't know...
See? Suck it up. NO one cares. No one should. Stop trying to make your problems other peoples. It your s**t. Deal with it. Stop trying to make there life more complex, there going to hate you for it.
Sorry,I don't mean to.
YES! YOU ******** DO! Why the hell else would to try to make them see?
Cause.. cause I want it to stop...
But it wont. It's your problem. No one cares. No one should. WTF? You expect some heroic being to come forth and solve all your problems?
No..
Then What? HUH? Just SHUT THE ******** UP ALREADY!
I'm... sorry..
Sorry means you won't do it again.