I'm hearing Her voice again,
I'm falling asleep again.
Will they ever know how hard I fought?
Will they ever see how hard it became just to be?
It seems like all they want me to do is confess.
Why now?
Why when I'm actually not in distress?
Can't they understand?
I've dealt them the clean hand.
There's no more lies, no more hiding.
Yes, I made a mistake.
Yes, I ******** up.
Yes, I was weak.
Yes, I was pathetic.
True, I used you.
What else do you want me to say?
Do you actually want me to relive those days?
If you keep bringing my demons to life... Eventually they will consume me.
He... I think he gets it. I hope he does.
It's funny how one minute they can be fine, and the next they're chugging down that wine.
And she.. won't touch me.
She... won't speak to me.
And finally... she won't even speak to me.
Is this how it is going to be?
If it is... ******** this life.
I'd rather be free.
Free from pain,
life,
and the external world.
But I won't.
I'll only do that...
Through Ascension of my self.
I will forge my own
Self-Revolution.
 Alucarda Incarnate · Sat Nov 03, 2007 @ 12:21am · 1 Comments |
