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Demyx IX Melody
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Posted: Wed Dec 05, 2007 @ 11:30pm

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	I give up There always has to be something wrong with my life, always. You know, this constant optimism is starting to die along with the rest of me. For once, my Real Life is going good, my moms being nice, I'm able to talk to my dad again, and I can hang out with my friends. But because everything is wonderful in the real world, things have to ****** themselves over here in the world of Gaia. I feel like st now when I shouldn't, I want to cry when I should laugh, and worst of all, I want to die. I'm sick of bullshit, I'm sick of all of this. Give me one good reason to stay? Give me one good ****** reason, because I'm really just ready to give up on Gaia and just live in the real world. **** everything, because apparently I'm not allowed to live a fantasy life, because even in my escape, I'm screwed over. So, if you don't have a reason for me to stay, I'm out. And don't say "Oh I'll miss you", because that's not true, you'll get over me, give it a day or two, and I'll be out of your memory. And please, don't say I'm overreacting. It's not my fault. I can't help being paranoid, I can't help but suffer from depression, I'm a mental case, and I can't take any medicine for it because my mom doesn't believe anything I ever say, especially when it comes to my health. Don't give me bullshit, because then, I really will leave. I'm sick of all the crap, I really am. So if you gonna pile on your asshatty st on me, ****** you, and **** everything, I'm done. I'm not finding any appeal to this st hole anymore. Four years I've been here, and I will GLADLY put it all to waste. So really, I ask, what's the point?

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Commented on: Thu Dec 06, 2007 @ 03:52am


	I seem to be to late but maybe you'll come back and this might make a difference sighs First off, sure I haven’t talked to you that much. I think I may have that offended you a long while ago and be assured I probably didn’t realize it. So I'm truly deeply sorry u_u Leaving a fantasy, a world other than reality itself... I don't know what to say, its like giving a part of your self up, an Identity up. I mean I go on gaia to escape reality and yet at the same time i live in it. I’m not the best person that gives advice. But I've seen some of your comments. You give the truest advice I’ve ever seen! I admire it! In a way I loath it! I’ve seen you cheer up so many people. My point: Live in reality but and live in fiction, It creates a full circle O

Commented on: Fri Dec 07, 2007 @ 06:18am


	Dude there are nice people on Gaia, I happen to be one of them. So don't let things get you down if a few people are being jerks. Just ignore the jerky people like I tend to do. Set your profile to friends only if you must and let only the people on your friend's list talk to you. If you have to, remove a few of them if you can't stand them anymore. I just stick to replying back to the people who leave me comments on my profile and rarely go to the forums. hugs If you do go it'll be sad to see a good Demyx rper go because of certain things happening. Maybe one day you might come back. shrugs Who really knows for certain.

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Commented on: Sat Dec 08, 2007 @ 09:44pm


	Yeah I know I really have no place to comment, since I barely know you but I hope that somehow me contributing a message won't bother you/tick you off more. Thing is I understand how you feel, because that is life. Nothing can ever be perfect either way. It's like someone's intentionally making one particular aspect of it so ******** up that the rest, all the memories and dear people around us, seem to be dragged into the depths of the black hole of depression. But what we often forget is that those people are still there, and what really needs to be thrown into that ever consuming suicide hole are all the jerks. Most people try to being you down so they'll feel better about themselves, that is why it's best to laugh it off, pay no heed of attention to them and just go about your life. For me this online world is like a sanctuary, because here you can act just the way you want exactly, be who you want without the fear of judgement from people. Nevertheless, fact remains that were ever you are there will always be jackasses to make that time miserable. All you have to do is just block them out. Because even with them here, there are still people much better than that, those being your friends. It is, however, a personal choice whether you choose to leave this or not. Even if I personally think you should stay due to it being a waste, because now even more assholes will out rule in numbers to us better folks. (which is a bit selfish of me to say) But whatever your choice may be, I hope it brings you happiness.

Commented on: Sat Dec 08, 2007 @ 09:48pm


	Double post.. x--x sorry

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