I'm really getting bad at thinking up titles...not that I was ever good at it to being with unless you count "stupidness" to be a good title. Anyways I just got back from my cousin's funeral. It was really sad and I really just wanted to leave. I felt sick and I felt like I shouldn't cry even though I was. I felt bad about it so I kept going off by myself because I couldn't stand to watch. Kevin's 6 year old daughter Alyssa was really close to Brian. She didn't come to the wake yesterday because they were afraid she would make a sceen. She was mad that they left her and thought that Kevin was playing a joke on her and even when she saw him in the casket today she kept saying that he wasn't really dead, he was only pretending, the whole entire time she sat there waiting for him to get up I guess and then when they were lowering him into the ground she started crying her heart out and it was the sadest thing I ever saw. Kevin still made everyone laugh though. He has a talent for making people laugh no matter what. I love his personality. There was this preacher that Brian said he liked once. He said he liked that old preacher and I think the reason he liked him is because he probably made him laugh in church. He was so old and weird that I think maybe he forgot it was a funeral. He kept saying we were all going to die and we were all just a breath away from hell. My uncle John and Jim were on the verge of cracking up and they were right in front of me so of course I was trying very hard not to laugh then I looked at Jenny and my Mom and all three of us lost it and laughed and I feel terable but the guy just would not shut up! He was absolutly determinded to 'save' someone. He kept saying "If you know that you have not been saved raise up and let me pray for you! Come on! It's ok don't be embarassed!" and Evelyn was getting a little upset will all the talk about dying and going to hell so finally Kevin walked over to the preacher and said "Save me man" so he prayed for him and finally shut up and let some other guy finish it up then we did the burial which was the sadest part, then we went over to David and Evelyn's house and talked about some of the good memories they had of Brian, which Kevin started by saying "hey isn't forth of July comming up? You remember last fourth of July when me and Brian and Chris had that bottle rocket war and Brain had those bottle rockets in his shirt pockets and I hit him with one and they all went off and he caught on fire and Dad had to chase him down and put the fire out? That was hella funny!" and it made everyone laugh thinking about it and that's the way the rest of the day went, just sitting there talking about old memeries and eating cake and cookies. Evelyn seemed ok, but it took a lot of effort just to get her to leave the grave site and for a while she broke down and David and Chris had to help her to the car and even tell her to move her right foot and then her left..and so on. I hope she'll be ok, I really do and I hope Alyssa will be ok too, her mom took her home early because she cried herself to sleep. Overall I guess it went as good as funerals go, but it was still sad, and I still cry when I think about it. Now I guess I'm going to shut up now so I can focus on rping with Savvi and get my mind off this depressing stuff. Write again later. Bye.
 HanaJaganshi · Thu Jun 30, 2005 @ 12:06am · 0 Comments |
