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Wow, I was just looking back on some of my old entries from like 3 months ago. I can't believe how noobie they were. Yes, I won't lie, I was once a noob, you probably think I still am. But everyone on gaia once went through a "Noob Stage." Whatever. Not the point of this entry...

Okay, so I'm like hardXcore Gay Pride and I have no problem sharing my opinion. So what, it doesn't mean I'm gay. If I'm not some homophobic maniac it means I'm automatically gay. Like what the hell is that about?? Anyway, people have questioned me and my sexuality. Even before when I didn't really care about this type of thing. Once a girl im my class went around spreading rumors saying if she was having a love convention I'd be the first one there. (meaning I like girls) Another time my friends were talking about all the boys in my school, (BTW: none of them are cute) going on and on saying "He's sooo hot" or whatever. I was just sitting there critisising all of them. Then my friend just asked me do I like girls. Then my friend just randomly asked me "Are you a Lesbian?"

So whatever. That's just what people in public schools ask each other. However, currently in my program there's been a lot more questioning, not from peers, but from adults. If you look at my profile, it says "Loves Julia w/ a burning passion." She's a really close friend I've made and it's not 'love' as in sexual love, it's love like how you love your sister or something like that. I basically just hang out with girls there because a.) there's only like 3 boys and b.) I just don't feel confortable talking to them because they're all older than me, infact the youngest one is 2 years older, then there's a 19-year-old, and then there's a 30-something-year old.

But Julia tells me about how our doctor will ask her in sessions "What's your relationship like with Kristi." It's self explanitory what he really means by that. A dietition also asked her the same thing. I told my doctor about how Julia said that and he told me not to do anything "bad." I can just guess what he means by that. I just find it intresting that no one askes me whats our "Relation" We're really good friends, so what. Big deal. It's kind of funny, actually. I mean, I just know everyone thinks I like her in a sexual way. It really annoys me. I probably make people unconfortable, even though I don't really have much of a sexuality. If it didn't make them feel awkward why would it matter to them.