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"My pain, my pride. These scars are mine."~ Otep Shamaya

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crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying I get back from San Antonio for 4 days I was gone, i get back only to come home to a yelling father and a screaming wretch (aka mom) I scared the living st outta my gf by trying to commit suicide yet again. I **** made her cry... I like... really wanted to kill myself then... but she told me not to so since she is the only truth i know... i shall listen to her I ask my mom if I can go to a workshop for suicide prevention on friday for gay bi lesbian trangender and questioning teens and she says "You are at a very vulnerable stage in life right now and I don't want you to be around people like that" MY **** THERAPIST EVEN SAID SHE THOUGHT IT WAS WORTH A TRY AND SHE STILL WONT LET ME GO! My gf is gone for 10 days cry Everyone in my family is at my neck ready to linch me I had gone 6 weeks without cutting and I started back up again but I made a promise to my gf that I would not so Im going to try not to... but I dont want to hurt her... she is the only thing of any meaning in my life right now... My mom knows im bisexual and she told me this morning "No woman will ever be able to love you the way chris does" Chris is my bf... aka he loves me but I love him as a friend... I want to love him more than a friend sooooo badly... like i know im gay... and if i had to be with any man on this earth i would choose him... but... i just... i guess im sorta trying to make myself like guys again i dunno... but at least now my parents arent trying to like flame me everytime i walk in the house.... i mean... he is like the sweetest guy i have ever met... but i just dont feel the same way about him as i do with girls... especially one in particular... My parents have barred me from seeing the only person in my family who means ne thing to me... my brother Brian I just want to pull this trigger right now... but I have one reason to live... my beautiful Kristie <3 Alucarda Incarnate** · Tue Jul 26, 2005 @ 04:02pm · 1 Comments


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	st,STOP CUTTING i used to and i stopped TRY TO STOP FFS... stressed evil Offline fouisgras** · Community Member · Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 04:53am

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