Well today I had track practice. It went for two hours like it usally does. I love running and so when I heard we'd be running 6 laps around our school's track I was happy. Around the 5th lap though my chest started really hurting and I couldn't breath. I had to go to the sidelines and take a rest which I hated!I had to watch people run past me while I sat there in pain. I didn't tell my mom about it though....I don't like it when she worrys about me. Anyways besides that today was a unusual good day. I had a good lunch and recess and for once in my life I didn't get bullied!^^ That made my day. Also all day long none of my friends talked about there love life!^^ that put me in an even better mood. Though somehow even though I was surrounded by friends smiling and laughing I felt alone in side; empty...like I'm missing something...it's been like that for awhile but I guess it only started bothering me now. I know people that would love to have my life...so why am I not happy?Why do I want to die?The only reason I keep on going is cause I promised someone I wouldn't give up. Plus without me a lot of people wouldn't be here right now. I guess that's my purpose...helping other people though I cant help myself. Oh well here's two new poems I made
In love
In love cuz you're there
Sad cuz you don't care
Desperate cuz I need you
Afraid cuz I don't have a clue
Frustrated cuz you don't see
Alone cuz you're not with me
Jealous cuz I'm not her
Confused cuz I'm not sure
Tired cuz I have tried
Limp cuz I have cried
Pained cuz I've been hurt
Cautious cuz I'm alert
Overwhelmed cuz it's more to bare
In love cuz you're there
Alone
Alone cuz you left me
Hurting cuz you're no where to see
Missing you cuz you're gone
Crying cause it can't be redone
Dieing cuz you went with her
Lost cuz I'm no longer sure
In pain cuz you're gone
Now the misery is done
Blind cuz I can no longer see
Alone cuz you left me
yeah I know they're shorter but w/e hope you liked them....
 miroku fan 101 · Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 12:15am · 0 Comments |
