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Hmmm... (A Turn of events.) It seems things may be turning out good for me for once. I'm at a crossroads... And I'll have to make a difficult decision... but part of me believes that when the time comes... I'll make the right one, and it will be incredibly easy... sweatdrop You see... It seems that our moving is postponed... possibly indefinitely, and at this rate... I'm not certain, I'll go even if we do move... Also... my ex (I hate using that term...) is moving closer to where I currently live... so... I'll be able to spend more time with her, and no matter how much it pains me to admit it... even after her dumping me twice... I'm still have feelings for her... and I'm not sure that they will ever go away... And that means that I may have a very hard decision to make... Obey my mind? Pursue the girl who makes me laugh, and has a lot in common with me, and hasn't shattered my heart before, (But still needs a lot of convincing...) ... or... Obey my heart... And follow the girl who has crushed me... but follow her regardless... because I have feelings for her... and I still want to believe that she returns them... I don't know... I'm so confused... I find myself thinking about her for no reason... but then, when she calls... I keep begging myself to forget about her... Gah... Sometimes, I hate being a teenager...

Posted by: Dias Falc Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 09:26am

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No... No I didn't... Damn you, Google.

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Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 07:33pm


	What sucks is that it won't get any easier when you're no longer a teenager. Sorry!

Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 11:10am


	Heh... Heheh... HehehehahahahAHAHAH! ..eh.. Ehem. Sorry. -clears throat- I dun mean to laugh. I'm getting tired.. and I'm probably gonna deem this journal reply the last long, and thoughtful responsive thing I type up for a good long while lol. Aside from talking to Knyz or something lol. But I'm guessing the first chic is that one crush of yours and the second is R-... I'll call her R because you didn't put her name in here. >> But seriously.. that's a difficult decision? Like... Really?lol ...LOL. I mean I'd understand if they both were mad for ya or something. But c'mon dude!!! Lemme break this down for joo~. :3 The first choice seems a bit ridiculous dont you think?... especially compared to the second one. In fact.. the first choice doesn't even seem like it should even exist as the opposing option... more that you've put it there because it was a mere possibility, and out of the graciousness of your heart, you want to acknowledge it does exist. I really dont even see any conflict at all. I don't see that there really is such a decision to make! R...The second chic, is moving back dude... wasn't that the big problem? You know how regretful you get about crap like that. Do you really want to choose the person that you still have to talk into liking you to be with you even if you're constantly thinking about some else!?! Someone else who's practically right next to you? Don't you wanna at least try and make it work this time, instead of wishing you did? Do you really want to convince this other chic to fall for you if you're not even fully into it? Building on that.. really dude.. Wtf is this? What's the point of a relationship if your heart isn't in it? It's like... It's like you want the first one there so you can just.. have there lol. You're basically gonna try and convince some one to take the back seat. It's cold man, ice cold... I mean... it just.. LOL... it's funny... Sometimes we feel like there's a big thing to address, when there really isn't. At all. We put it there ourselves if anything... I think the decision is, is what you're willing to risk, if you're willing to risk anything at all again for the third time... If she's worth that much to you. I think she is... it's not like it's gonna be new news if s*t goes wrong... But that other chic, is probably looking up from her game right now going, 'I have the vague feeling, I've randomly been shoved into some sort of importance right now...'* LOL. I mean unless there was some random urgency in the situation, or like.. you seriously do have some feelings for this crush of yours who is.. uberly amazing and you may like... lose her any second or something.. really?... Where's this rather hard decision? >> I sorta.. kinda... really can't see it. LOL [EDIT:] Because there doesn't seem to actually be a decision between those two. JUST with the ex. so much as I can tell.. but then.. I dont know the whole sitch.. I'm just saying... Wait on the other girl, dude.. you gotta fix your crap with the ex first... (Hope that clears crap up about most of what I'm trying to say.) LMAO@ Smoke: Ah, salt on the wound, then stroll away. lol xD heart

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Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 05:23pm


	We are never gonna survive.... I wouldn't want to make this anymore complicated on you, but I really find myself having to say this. We often desire what we can't have. Make sure you aren't just wanting what is out of your reach. Don't set yourself up for punishment. They say its better to love and lost then to never have loved at all. Well, its also horrible to have unrequited love. Don't second guess yourself. Go with what feels right. If it is time to move on you will know. I suppose it really depends on why you want to forget about her. I know Mai will definitely disagree with me on this, from her post she already has, but I know what it is like to throw yourself away hoping that the other person will still have love for you. I don't think it would be wise for you to slip into that. I suggest you inquire into her feelings about you and if she has none for you, then deal. Otherwise you will continue to be hurt by her. ...Unless we get a little crazy.

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