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JaZzY~FiZzLe
~this night~
this night
this cold, useless night
no one to talk to
no one to hold on to
to care for, to be cared by
to love
or to be loved
all alone
darkness
no sleep
i will never sleep
until i hear myself
something i fail to do over, and over again
where am i?
im supposed to have fun, on a holiday, be a child
easter
but where is it?
i never even knew today was easter, until this morning
not even morning
noon
when i called her, my aunt, my love
and she reminded me
i need a real family
i don't know what its like, to be loved
i don't know what it is, honestly
what does anybody know?
what do i know?
im failing math, my best subject
why must this all happen to me?
everything
stress brings them back
the horrible feelings
burning in my chest
panic attacks
please make them stop, go away
stupid friends i have sometimes
they call themselves "friends"
what are real friends anyway?
i never felt so alone, so lost
who else to turn to?
why am i even up so late?
because i close my eyes, and they open again
from thoughts
i never wish to see
thoughts i never with to have turned into actions
so scary, yet so real
visions, that really do happen
nobody believes me, only i know the truth
only i understand
enough to know what happens next
this emotion
unexplanible
it will leave, but i don't know when, hopefully soon
when will it dissapear?
when will it crush, and a knew emotion of somewhat happiness arise?
a warm and comferting emotion
that feels like home
like nothin wrong ever happens
like im loved
like i have real friends
like i have no visions
like i have dreams instead of nightmares
like i don't have panic attacks
like i have real parents
like i was a kid again
like the way i used to be...






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burntcicle
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Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 04:38pm


awwww r these peoms true. u feel blue if u feel bluei feel blue for you to crying sad cry


just_jazzy247
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Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 05:16pm


eh, sorta, its just a way to empty my thoughts. ive been out of it for awhile, but i ain't gonna start cuz then im gonna say stuff to u and u won't understand, and just a bunch of negativity from me, and thats not me... lol poetry is a form of complaining to me, kinda clensing my thoughts, cuz i would get yelled @ for complaining sweatdrop


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:18am


awwz. poor jazzy need a huggy *hugz* jazzy sad. as long as ur not emo or nuthin i wont bug u 4 negativty bnut if ur emo express ur feelings 2 me idc. i here smile


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:19am


lol thnx, ur cool buddy wink


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:24am


cool? awesum!!!!! ur coolios 2!


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:26am


lol ur coolierest!!


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:31am


psh nahhhhhhhhh i cant be as cool as u


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:48am


ah, don't start, ur awesome...but thnx, i think ur really cool tho


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:52am


aww shucks thnxs ur coolios n awesum 2!! 3nodding


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 01:53am


lol shweet 3nodding xd


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 04:48pm


yup yup yupperssss 3nodding 3nodding 3nodding 3nodding 3nodding


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 04:51pm


lol hows ur spring break?? mine sucked....lol so far anyway


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:15pm


lets just say its not horrible. 2nite im spending the night at my nieces n then going 2 the mall 2morrow


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:19pm


aww lucky, thing haven't been goin so great, i didn't have an easter, and my soccer game sucked even tho everybody just thinks it rocked, but it didn't.... stare it only makes me wonder about the next one....


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:23pm


yea. awwwz poor jazzy. needs a hug. i can hugs u if u want 1.


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:25pm


lol thnx ^^, but tell me y my parents never woke up 4 easter? stayed in their frikkin room all day..... stare


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:32pm


idk... maybe they r lazy did they even buy easter candy 4 u


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:33pm


haha no... stare


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:41pm


geeeesh lousy parents id id id id idk they shouldnt be parents if they r really like tht ur aunt is like a mom 2 u even though ur parents should be ru mom n dad but u no sum parents r screwed up not sayin urs r maybe they r stressing? my mom is since the day she was pregnet she started yellin which was when sh ewas pregnet iwth my brother n she wotn stop yelling


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:42pm


they aren't very good parents, they need 2 go fall in a hole....lol


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:50pm


lol good but i could think worse.... go skydiving without a parachute n land on a desert


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:53pm


lol nice one wink


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 05:59pm


hehehehe uy no im mad at my brother nowi over heard a conversation between him n my mother n he said usmthing mean bout me o rone of my sisters n if its me im gonna go off


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:00pm


kick his butt!! man!!


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:05pm


im not going to kick his butt im 13 n hes 18..... big age difference but its still rude of him 2 say tht


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:11pm


lol i don't have an older brother but i would sure as hell want one, ill still kick his a** tho...


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:14pm


yea i dont even want a sibling uness they the opposite of my brother which is nice nkind n follows rule most of the time my brother is like rude n dot care bout laws n the fact my mom n dad can go 2 jail 4 actions he does tht he shouldnt be doing


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:17pm


o.o freaky... my parents can go 2 jail for sum of the crap that they've been doin, but u kno, i won't even say nothin cuz thats just gonna cause more problems lol


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:21pm


yea i think people r just lazy now a days stare


just_jazzy247
Community Member





Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:24pm


lol tell me about it, its frikkin humans in the 21st century, it suxx...


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 10:20pm


in o right wa would ppl do if we lived in like the 15th century


just_jazzy247
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 10:22pm


i woulodn't b ur friend, we can go back to wen ppl were nice but not so far back that ppl were racist....lol


burntcicle
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Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 10:39pm


ok the century our parents were born idk. we could be friends secrectly though heehe


burntcicle
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Fri Mar 28, 2008 @ 03:38am


you know what i don't know


just_jazzy247
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Fri Mar 28, 2008 @ 03:41am


o wow lol , omg theres like gangs running around my house like wth??? 0.o??


burntcicle
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Fri Mar 28, 2008 @ 08:19pm


o my i would be scared and b elike DONT SHOOT ME IM INNOCENTTT


just_jazzy247
Community Member





Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 12:10am


lol wow, omg tell me why i cut myself in my leg and idk where it came from!!!! it burns like the intensity of a thousand dessert suns


burntcicle
Community Member





Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 01:05am


O wow. I cut myself by accident shaving last night. It bleeded bad but I put band aid over and spraid some of that ugh what is it called. It stops infections and crap. UGH IT STARTS WITH A B I BELIEVE. I will think of it later.


just_jazzy247
Community Member





Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 01:10am


lol that bandage spray crap?? ugh it burnz like idk wat >.<


burntcicle
Community Member





Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 01:16am


Yea I guess. Yes it says it doesn't burn and I sprayed and felt burning. I was like such a lie.


just_jazzy247
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Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 01:23am


lol i hate it wen that happens, i get so mad @ my parents wen they tell me sumthin doesn't burn, and it doesn't even have to burn, it can be the tiniest burn ive ever felt, but i still get mad @ em ...lol


burntcicle
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Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 01:35am


Yea they le to us and sya it doesnt burn and it does even though it oculd be the tiniest burn ever


just_jazzy247
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Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 01:41am


its not really the burn that bothers me, just the fact that they lied, but i would know an aweful lot about that.... stare


burntcicle
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Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 07:19pm


Yea thats wat i ment. They lied even if it's the tiniest burn you will ever feel. Its still a lie and they know it


just_jazzy247
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Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 09:33pm


lol, tell me why all the internet and comcast in the area wasn't working last night and my laptop still fails to work??? im on my house computer rite now, im so frikkin mad tho


burntcicle
Community Member





Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 11:50pm


hummmmmm idk is it charged? or did u connect to the internet


just_jazzy247
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Sun Mar 30, 2008 @ 05:07pm


i don't know, i just won't start up at all, stupid computer, both of the computers hooked into the house works, but mine sux stare i turn it on and the blue screen comes up sayin sum stuff like "sorry but you have no connection" or something like that, it frikkin gets on my nerves stressed


burntcicle
Community Member





Mon Mar 31, 2008 @ 01:34am


hummmmmmm idk wats wrng then ow ell computers can just be gay sumtimes


just_jazzy247
Community Member





Mon Mar 31, 2008 @ 02:10am


ugh stressed i downloaded a virus on it somehow stare i need it!!!!!! sad lol


burntcicle
Community Member





Mon Mar 31, 2008 @ 02:34am


welp i cant help you there then. hopefully a virus wont download ont his computer or ill be mad


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