Tonight was DiDi's birthday party.
I was ready at about 1 to leave the house,
And it didn't start until 7.
So, naturally,
I had some time to burn.
So,
I went on the computer,
Got off the computer,
Played my Gamecube,
Went back to the computer,
And so on and so forth.
[I even went and washed the hair wax out 3 times in a row until I found the hair-style I wanted. xD]
All day I've been...
Meh.
I was down, pretty much.
I...
I just couldn't get Clarence off of my mind.
Does he think about me?
Does he wonder what I'm doing?
'Cause I've been doing that constantly.
Anyhow,
Adam called me about an hour before the party was supposed to start,
And asked if I could head over to Jump City,
And wait with him so he wouldn't be alone.
I couldn't just let him be sitting there by himself,
So I left early,
And showed up.
We sat there and talked,
And it was nice.
Eventually DiDi showed up,
And we headed inside.
Once there, we got stamped,
And we waited a bit more for people to show up.
One of the things that Adam told me was that Darius was supposed to show up.
That idea just made me freeze.
I was freaking out,
Hoping to GOD that he wouldn't show up.
The last time I had even talked to him was the day I told him that I was using him,
And that I didn't really like him.
I was scared he might hate me now,
Or worse, try and start something.
Unfortunately, he DID show up,
Just a few minutes after everyone else did.
I ended up sitting alone in one of the jumper-things for long intervals.
By sitting there alone,
I was able to think,
And remember;
I remembered how wonderful it felt to put Clarence's picture on my cellphone's wallpaper,
And how amazing it was to just sit next to him,
And be somewhere,
Knowing that he was mine,
And that I was his.
Then I started to realize,
I miss that.
I miss him.
I miss him quite terribly.
I don't know how,
And I don't know why,
But I miss him,
And I want him back.
Desperately.
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The Life and Times of Tim
What's going on in my life, what's going through my mind, and song lyrics at random to FYI on my mood.
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