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Did you ever wonder about the true reason behind such a mercurial charade I portrayed?
Why you calling me volatile was not only merited but obvious?
Because for over the past year that is how my condition has been.
Why the ******** do you think I've attempted suicide over 6 times in one year?
Why do you think I get sick so easily?
The past is the past, but I've grown content with my life.
Truly, honestly.
I'm no longer depressed. Rather ironic though, right before the moment of solitude I gain Nirvana. So cliché.
However there is one small possibility of a recovery, but that would imply that my mother makes 3 times what she makes in one year just to pay for one simple... I guess you could call it a removal.
I never told you about it.
Never saw a reason to.
It just makes people pity you.
So why bother?
I've spent two of the greatest weeks of my life in a country that changed my life.
I've done almost everything I wanted to... And what I've written will be published, even after this tragedy unfolds.
I wanted to be the different one in the greatest female authors list.
I wanted to be the one who went on to bask in her success.
I wanted to be the one who defeated depression, schizophrenia, multiple personalities, and other demons I dare not speak of.
However, my work will live.
My creativity will thrive.
My impacts and creations will survive.
I am content.
So go ahead, begin burying any and all laments.
I will gladly keep them company.
 Alucarda Incarnate · Fri Apr 18, 2008 @ 06:30am · 0 Comments |
