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i fear my thoughts might offend people. the way i look at things sometimes are just so...ok see now i dont want to say my thoughts are different either cause i know other people have thoughts like mine...i just cant win lol. ok so maybe i could say my thoughts on things sometimes are just so dark and sad. only i dont see them that way. but others probably would. i think to much.

but i've been thinking so much lately about how things are. actually my thoughts were mostly about murder lol. not that i was thinking of killing someone or anything (though i do think about it from time to time)i was thinking about why people kill other people i guess and i was trying to decide if it was bad or not. but i've decided that...well people love pain. pain in any form really. its pathetic. i mean do people really feel better about themselfs after they hurt someone or themselfs? well if they dont they still do it. i guess most people are so pathetic that they need pain and hate to make their lives more interesting more...fun.

this made me think about death and murder. everyone is responsible for their deaths even if they are murdered. its not gods fault you die and its not the murderers. i mean do you really think people would kill other people if people wouldn't have mistreated them? even if you get killed by someone you haven't ever met its still your fault. why? because think about it we are all connected and what we do affects things even if its only a tinny bit.

im not saying i think its right to kill people. but i think revenge (which is ultimately what murder is) is fair. but only those who are strong dont seek it. revenge is an act of the weak.

i dont blame any killers for what they have done because most times they became what they are cause of the cruelty others have shown them. we make the murderers. im sad for Eric Harris and Dylan Kleblod (if i spelled their names wrong im going to kick my own a** later) they were good people. at least i think so. though i never knew them heh. even though people were so shitty to them they still said they didn't want anyone to blame anyone but them for what happened. this showed me how human they were or maybe its that they weren't so human at all cause humans never want to take the blame for anything thats "wrong" im truly sad for people.

and im sorry if i offend people. but this is what i think and if you dont like it im sorry but i would sooner die them betray my thoughts. and until the world shows me differently i will continue to think and feel they way i do.