Screw what you ask?
EVERYFINGTHING!
Bwaha. That felt good. You know, I've just now realized what a waste of time this whole internet thing is. Don't get me wrong. I love it and everything, but it just consumes so much of my life that, well... it's kinda pathetic.
Looking back through my summer, I've realized that by shutting out the internet, I can live such an active life; the kind of life I never thought people like me could live.
It's amazing and I love it.
I won't quite Gaia or anything, but I am thinking about spending my time more wisely. I just want a more eventful life, that's all... so don't think all ya'll are getting rid of me so easily. I'll be on just as much I as was on the whole month of June, which I've calculated to be around 10 hours a week.
That'll do nicely. I've recently noticed that this summer has been the best summer I've had since I was 11. Freakin' 11! After that summer, I became an internet whore.
I mean, no 12 year old should waste half as much time on the computer as I did. And that applies to 13 and 14 year olds as well. I was young, and incredibly stupid, so if you are under the age of 15 please, please get off the computer and live your life.
...Go play tennis or something. It can change your life.
What provoked this realization? My Saturday. My amazing Saturday. Prepare for a flashback...
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...My family all woke up at 5 that morning so we could go to the balloon rally in Vestal or whatever that place is. When we left, the fog was still dancing over the fields and the world was still asleep. It was so peaceful... well, except for my vanfull of loud, obnoxious siblings (and father.. he's the loudest of all!). But we had fun. The balloons launched on time this year so we were just alittle late. We managed to see about half of the balloons take off.
I was kinda on the lookout for that Johnny Depp look alike I saw last year but mostly I was just enjoying being with my family.
After we watched the last of the balloons take off, we went to breakfast at Denny's and had even more fun. It was at that point that I realized just how lucky I am to have my family. Sure, two of my family members aren't with us anymore, but I still have five to keep me company and I thank God for them every day. I don't even want to think about where I'd be without them. They are my four closest friends in the world. Then there's my father... I can't stand him, but I still love him.
We spent the rest of the morning and some of the afternoon at the mall. We bought school clothes and Dano went crazy spending his money on things at GameStpo. I managed to squeeze some money out of my father at Waldenbooks so I could get my friends birthday gifts (I'm still broke, and jobless). Oh, and we also got spiedies from Lupos while we were up there. They were sooooo good. I was still full from breakfast but everyone kept offering me bites of their subs... I think my lack of appetite scares them...
On the way home, we stopped at the music store in the valley to get new strings for Dano's violin and a new neckstrap for Caitlin's sax (which I've been practicing more than she has). I saw my friend Jules and talked with her for the time we were there... Gosh, I miss her. I wish we had had more time to talk but I was soooooo exhausted and music stores make my dad irratible and we had spiedie meat sitting in the hot van... but it was still good to see her.
I think we got home around 4ish but I'm not sure. I immediately went upstairs to write in my journal but ended up writing a letter to my aunt. Usually I just email her, but when I thought about doing that, it just seemed so informal. So I snail-mailed her. When I came down stairs, muh Chrissy was there and the boys were all killing eachother in the living room... Daniel bought a one person shooter so they were all playing fourway.
Then when I layed down to go to bed at 6ish (yes, I was that exhausted) Bridget called and asked me to the movies. I almost didn't go, but Bridget is one of the people who I've seen the least of so I said why not.
We saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. God, it was demented. I know, I know... the original one was, too, but this was a different kind of demented. I love Johnny Depp, he's so *sigh* weird. And weird, in his case, is hott! Good movie, you should see it. Though I didn't like the end... it was rather drawn out. It probably only seemed that way because I just saw the older version a couple of weeks ago but I dunno.
When I got home, around 9ish, my family was still up and the boys were still killing eachother in the living room. It was great. I love them all dearly.
It wasn't until I was laying in bed that night that I realized exactly how much I had done. And that if, by chance, I were to die in my sleep that night, I'd die knowing that I tried my hardest to go the extra mile and make the day fun for my family and friends. And that that should be what matters most to me. And then I realized how much I'd done in the two months of summer compaired with the several months I'd spent during the school year.
Looking back, it wasn't until the last month or so of school that I really started hanging out with my friends and going places with them and doing things... and I just want it to be like that all the time. My older brother once mentioned to me that it wasn't until the end of his senior year that he realized how much fun school could be.
I don't want to be pathetic like that. I WANT TO HAVE FUN DAMMIT!
(why did the song, Girls Just Wanna Have Fun, pop into my head?)
I like this, making the most of my life thing.
This summer, I have succeeded in accomplishing everything I had hoped for... and then some.
Hey, all you pathetic losers out there, I just want you to know, that I was once one of you, but now I'm not. I am one of the elite Gaians; the kind who have lives. The kind who don't need to use the term irl like it's diseased. I used to laugh at Gaians with real lives, but now, now I know how wonderful it is and I encourage you all to try it.
Though, I won't doubt that as soon as school starts, I'll join you again (I have horrible comitment) but try living for now and making the most of everything... because one day, you too will realize that all you have is today, so don't waste it.
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