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Choosing between me and a cheater?! That's HARD!?!
Could I not be more pissed and upset? Seriously....
It went something like this....
X Nocturnal X = Tyler
Mary says:
Hey. ^^
X Nocturnal X says:
hi...
Mary says:
What's wrong?
X Nocturnal X says:
aa lot idk where to start or if i even want to say it.
Mary says:
Oh. You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to.
X Nocturnal X says:
i need a ******** cigarette..
X Nocturnal X says:
i was gonna stop but now with this bs i dont see the point
Mary says:
Are you sure you don't want to talk about it? It might help you feel better.
X Nocturnal X says:
its a long story
Mary says:
Well....I gotta eat. So. I can do that and you can tell me without me even interrupting once while I'm gone. If you want.
X Nocturnal X says:
idk =/
Mary says:
Please? ^^
X Nocturnal X says:
y
Mary says:
Because...It would probably make you feel better if you talked about it, right? And I want to help you feel better.
X Nocturnal X says:
but this might make u feel bad
Mary says:
I'm sure I can take it. hah hah And you'd never know if it did or not anyway. ^^ So it is okay to talk about it.
X Nocturnal X says:
i dont want to make u feel bad..
Mary says:
Okay. I promise not to feel bad. hah hah I can make myself not feel bad. I won't feel bad no matter what.
X Nocturnal X says:
it doesnt work like that lol..
Mary says:
lol I can try to make it work that way.
X Nocturnal X says:
=/
Mary says:
I am good at makin myself not feel bad. Honest. And you can talk to me about it without worrying if it will make me feel bad. I won't. And I won't let you know so you don't feel any worse. So you can tell me okay? lol
X Nocturnal X says:
uuuuuuuuuuuugh..
X Nocturnal X says:
idk
Mary says:
hah hah. Well....If you really don't want to talk about it at all then you don't have to. But if you decide to you can.
X Nocturnal X says:
-sigh-
X Nocturnal X says:
well.. idk
X Nocturnal X says:
i could tell u what its about.
X Nocturnal X says:
only if u truthfully tell me how that makes u feel
Mary says:
I'll tell you how it truthfully makes me feel.
X Nocturnal X says:
Sam.
X Nocturnal X says:
its a lot more complicated that what u might assume
Mary says:
It makes me feel a lot of things. hah hah. But mostly worried.
X Nocturnal X says:
such as?
Mary says:
Worried, sad, jealous, nervous, sick inside, blank.... I think that covers it.
X Nocturnal X says:
im sorry..
Mary says:
Don't be sorry. lol
X Nocturnal X says:
why not?
Mary says:
Cause......I dunno. hah hah
X Nocturnal X says:
well damn it.. ill be sorry lol
X Nocturnal X says:
do u want to hear the whole story..
Mary says:
hah hah. Yeah, if you don't mind.
X Nocturnal X says:
i dont mind
X Nocturnal X says:
uh.. where to start..
X Nocturnal X says:
i went like.. 3 months without talking to her.. i tried like hell to move on and just forget. but it just hurt me more and more.idk what it is but i cant move on..
X Nocturnal X says:
i sent her a message telling her i wanted to just move on, try n forget.. but i wanted her to be happy and i hoped she found someone great. and told her how i felt n everything..
X Nocturnal X says:
i intended to just have some.. closure u kno?
X Nocturnal X says:
but she messaged me.. still loves me etc etc.. she wants me back..
Mary says:
Hah. Yeah. So.....what did you do?
X Nocturnal X says:
i didnt do anything
X Nocturnal X says:
because honestly? i dont know wtf to do and its killin me
X Nocturnal X says:
sorry internet died
Mary says:
hah hah. It's okay. ^^ I dunno what to say. lol
X Nocturnal X says:
died again..... ********
X Nocturnal X says:
u there?
Mary says:
Hah. Yeah. Sorry. I just dunno what to say. lol I'm thinking.
X Nocturnal X says:
well what was the last message u got
Mary says:
That your internet died again.
X Nocturnal X says:
before that lol
Mary says:
lol Um.
X Nocturnal X says:
because honestly? i dont know wtf to do and its killin me
X Nocturnal X says:
oo ok..
Mary says:
I'm just not...sure what to say... I can't even think of anything. I guess. I don't know.
Tyler says:
well there really isnt anything to say.
Tyler says:
but i figured i needed to let u know =/ i didnt wanna keep it from u
Mary says:
Hah hah. Yeah. Thanks for telling me. ^^ Really.
Tyler says:
how could u be thanking me? lol
Mary says:
I dont know. I dunno what else to say.
Mary says:
I dont want to make you feel bad or anything. Or make it any worse or something like that.
Tyler says:
i deserve it
Tyler says:
so have at it
Mary says:
No. I'll feel even worse if I make you feel bad for it.
Tyler says:
but u need to vent so go ahead
Tyler says:
well? lol
Mary says:
I.....feel.....sick. And upset and sad and worried and.... I'm not good at telling this stuff. lol But...yeah. I'm upset and crying and all. And I like you a lot and I know that you like Sam a lot or did still do. I dunno..so... That'd be the whole worried problem.
Tyler says:
im really sorry =[ the thing is i really like you both =
Mary says:
Well, I guess you should pick who you like...best. hah hah... Sometime.
Tyler says:
no pressure or anything right...
Mary says:
lol Yeah. No pressure.
Tyler says:
blah =/
Mary says:
Hah. Yeah. =P I feel that way. And it's cold in my room. I had to wrap up in my comforter. -__- No blankets.
Tyler says:
sorry im not saying much ive had my head on the desk for idk how long. i took tramadol and im suffering cuz ofi t
Mary says:
Its okay. ^^ I'm just laying around. My head is like dying. lol I dont feel like getting a tylenol.
Tyler says:
y dont u lol..
Mary says:
Its freezing out there. Plus I'm like not wantin to go down there and get it. lol I feel kinda sick. Moving a lot sucks. I think it is the old medicine I took last night. But it tasted good.
Tyler says:
=/ if u rlly think thats why
Mary says:
Hah hah. Maybe. ^^ Its at least part of the reason I guess.
Tyler says:
=[
Mary says:
Sorry. I didn't mean to make it like that. >_<
Tyler says:
its ok
Tyler says:
my fault anyway
Yeah. I've been crying for awhile. I suppose we aren't officialy dating or anything....but I still care about him a lot. I like him so much...he just doesn't get it I guess. And she cheated on him! What the ********... I guess the distance just isn't tolerable... I guess I don't blame him. I'm still upset and heartbroken, but it'll be even worse if he decides to choose her.
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