Hm... I haven't written anything on this journal for quite some time now....
Let's see... What should I write about next..? Let me think for a moment...
Well... nothing's really new in my current life... Things are pretty average I guess...
My summer classes in pre-calculus already ended a few weeks ago so recently, I've followed my daily routine of: waking up-surfing the net-eating breakfast-reading fanfictions-watching InuYasha-sleeping-waking up again-eating lunch-washing the dishes-taking a bath-passing time by any means-sleeping on weekdays and taking up a fairly similar routine on weekends as well...
Hm.. Well... that's basically what I do every single day of summer... You'd think I'd be bored of it by now but I'm not... In fact, I find my routine quite enjoyable... especially since I know for a fact that when summer ends, I'll be forced to leave my comfort zone of wonderful fiction stories in order to face reality once again as soon as school term starts...-sigh-
And as you can see, I'm not really enthusiastic about school... Apart from my usual dislike against the work overload given by teachers, I'm also feeling a sense of trepidation since I'll be entering college. Thus, I'll have to get used to a new environment. Moreover, I won't be staying with my parents anymore... I have to live with my aunt and her family together with my sister since the college I'm going to is pretty far from our current home... -sighs again-
So you see, I'll be feeling a whole lot of pressure once I leave the confines of this house... Apart from trying to cope with college lessons, I also have to fit in and balance all the added responsibilities... It also doesn't help that I'm such a dork when it comes to striking fairly decent conversations and a clueless traveler to boot... Honestly, I really am quite a pitiful sight to behold... I bet I'll get lost... -sighs yet again-
But then, there's nothing I can do anymore... Going to that college was my choice so if ever things don't really work out too well, I'll just have to endure the consequence of that choice...
Man.. I don't really like to think about these kinds of things... Well, actually I don't normally do... I don't like to burden myself with these kinds of problems and just try to focus and enjoy the present... Most of the time, I just shrug off these 'future problems' but recently, this worry has been bothering me a lot [and by a lot I mean I'm beginning to think about it at least once a day... Mind you, that's already a lot for me] so it's really good that I've been able to voice these worries out even though it's only through writing...
I'm not really close to my family and I don't feel like calling my friends so voicing out my worries through this journal entry was probably the best option... Actually, I'm already feeling quite relieved... heart
Well… That’s all for now… I think this entry is long enough… I don’t want to bore my readers too much [that is IF I have any readers… rofl ]
 llianya · Mon May 19, 2008 @ 09:41pm · 0 Comments |
