Today sucked. Really, there were so many reasons as to why it sucked. Let's start at lunch, where we went wrong. At lunch today my friends were really annoying me. They were talking about dieting and at the cafeteria how can the salads be lower in calories and whatever. I mean I get the impression they think when they letters F, A, and T are put together it burns my eyeballs and yet sitting here talking about food is so much better. And it really annoyed me because they were asking me about nutrition. Like hard core questioning. Why the ******** would they ask me? Actually don't bother pondering this question, I already know the answer. My friend Mariana was asking me was it okay for her to eat a lot at breakfast and dinner. I don't know, I feel uncomfortable being asked those sort of things. Mariana ended up not eating lunch. Thanks for the support, that's really motivating. Then she went on saying "I'm not going to stop eating, I'm still going to eat at home." While all of this conversation about dieting was going on, I started realizing how fat I really am. No, really, I'm really fat. This was just a friendly reminder. Thanks. And I started thinking how I REALLY want to weight less. If I was just 15 pounds lighter, 15 damn pounds lighter.
Then after lunch, which was supposed to be the high point of my day, I had science. All my classes are so boring, but in different ways. In science all my teacher does is just talk and we just read and learn about something I could care less about. Today we had a sub in science like every other subject. That guy redefined boredom. He was a sub who was acting like a life coach. He was saying the reason he became a sub is because he is sick of people not taking school seriously. Like one sub is really gonna change that. Yeah, not that powerful buddy. He also kept saying how nobody cares. That was basically is motto I guess. I was sitting there chewing a delicious piece of Orbit gum and he made a random, totally general announcement about said gum-chewing. Everyone was looking around wondering who it was and he just stood there saying "she knows it's her." Everyone had figured out it was me and my record for never getting caught with gum had been tainted. The sub asked me if I was allowed to have gum. But I didn't hear him the first time (for shame) so I just said "huh" and then he goes on about how people don't listen so they you have to repeat yourself. He was right, I wasn't listening.
It was a really depressing day. I had gym so that didn't help, but if it was wood shop it would have been a lot worse. I don't like changing in gym so I wear sweat pants for gym. Too bad we couldn't use the gym because of the science fair so we just sat in the cafeteria for an hour doing nothing. Great, I wore this crappy outfit for nothing D: The gym thing wasn't a big deal, I actually hate gym and glad we did nothing, but the fact that the rest of my day sucked so badly made it seem a lot worse.
I hate school. I hate the public education system. I didn't feel like going to school this morning. Now I really don't want to go tomorrow. I bet it's gonna be just as bad. Just talking about it makes me sick.
