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the past several months have been interesting. i have learned a lot of things, some relating to the relationship i was in, but most compleatly unrelated. all of them are important to me, so i'm going to list a few of them.

-i've learned who my real friends are. who i can trust with my life. even if we get into a disagreement of some sort, we get over it and can be friends again.
-i do matter. this may seem strange for me to put, but it's truely a new concept to me. i had no self esteem and bent to the will of others. i broke under next to no pressure. i gave my opinions, my wishes, my self no value whatsoever. i'd still place only a minimal value on my life, but if someone thinks i should do something that i believe to be wrong i'm not going to do it.
-not all problems can be solved with ice cream, but hugs are capable of saving lives *and they have no calories XD*
-going along with that, all i need in life is a hug. i have friends, so i'm pretty much good on that. =)
-follow your dreams, but don't be stupid about it.
-i can't write happy things. don't bother asking me to try
-no one knows me. this is my fault as i spin a new mask for every feasable situation that could come up, but still...it's kinda sad. i have 2 friends who are pretty damn close, though, and that's as close as i'm willing to get without bolting.
-not all situations call for laughter. before i'd try to get a friend to laugh if they were unhappy, but this has gotten me in too much trouble, and it doesnt help except with like 1 person, so i'll drop this technique for general use
-there's always a song out there i can relate to.
-tears don't show weakness, they show that i am only human *as unfortunate as that may be lol*
-some people will never be understanding or accepting. it's best to just steer clear of them. fights solve very little
-some things never change, and some things are always changing. this is the way of the world, and overall i think i'll just go with the flow
-some scars will never fade as much as you may wish they would.

this list is mostly just for me cuz i felt like writing it, but i'll leave it public because i have nothing to hide. this is a little glimps into my minds workings. awoot!

heart ~echo