How long will it last?
This simple existance
How long will it last?
This delicate love
I'm scared to ask you
I don't want promises
Promises become chains
For how long will you love me?
Don't say forever
I might believe you
I don't know what I'd want you to say
I'm scared of any answer I can think of
So I won't ask you
I guess "Does it matter?"
Would be an answer I'd like
I'm scared of things that are certain
Because they never are
I think my Daddy forgot my birthday
As the few days before it pass
I get more and more depressed
He's remarried now
I thought he still loved me
but it seems he's starting to forget about his baby girl
But I'm not really his baby girl anymore
His new daughter is younger than me
Tears roll down my cheeks from the new realization
All I've ever wanted was someone who loved me
and knew me my whole life
Some I could share memories with
But I can never have that person
The military destroyed that fragile dream
I don't have anyone to remember with
I barely have any friends
I trust so few
There's only two people I can cry infront of
I cried alone almost all my life
Do you know how painful that is?
Do you realize how lonely a person can get?
My parents, how many time do they hug me these days?
Maybe once every three or more months
Do you know how painful that is?
I crave someone I can trust enough
to cry infront of
I just hope that they'll hold me close as I do
In that moment
Life would seem so beautiful, so real
Someone save me from this lonely existance
SadistikMasochist Community Member 
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