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This past week,
I have had no contact from Adam.

And...It's done something to me.

I've had a short-temper with nearly everyone,
And, well, I've been missing our late-night phone calls. D:

But, the good news is,
I have something to hold on to--
He's supposed to come over tomorrow,
And we're gonna lay on my bed, and watch a movie or two. :]

It'll be great.
I can't wait for this to happen.

Only one problem.
I decided I'd call him today,
Just to see if he'd answer yet.

And what happened?
It actually rang.

[I tried calling him multiple times this week, but I kept getting the BEEPBEEPBEEP noise that his phone was turned off, or wasn't receiving calls or something.]

And, it ringing ticked me off a bit.
Or at least,
Made me wonder;

If his phone was now working,
That means it should show that I called him,
And that I sent him a few text messages.

If that's true,
Then,
Why didn't he respond yet?
Why is it taking him so long to respond,
Or is he even going to?

So, it was ringing.
And he picked up.
I asked him if he could talk,
And he said "Sure!"

So, I was like,
"Well, I was just calling to see how you were doing.."

And he said how he was having loads of fun,
And that he's met tons of new friends.

I told him how great that was,
And then asked him if we're still on for tomorrow.

And he said,
"Actually, I'm getting home around 9 tonight, so I won't be able to come over tomorrow."

I was kinda confused at first,
But I shoved that away.
"Oh...Okay then.." was my response,
And I told him I had to go.

He didn't even realize how sad I was.

:/
I've been looking forward to this for about 2 weeks now.
I yelled at Jordan for this.
I ...
asldkjf.

I wish I was straight.
If there was a pill I could take,
That would make me that way,
I would do it without a second thought.

Dating guys has only ended badly,
Each and every time.

At least when you're dating a girl,
You don't have reason to hide anything.
You can hold hands without stares,
And the girls usually want to hold hands in public.

Adam's said before that he would totally do that,
But I somehow doubt it.

I don't know.
I just....
I want someone.
Someone who won't let me down.

I think I might break up with Adam.
At least until summer ends.
Maybe, once we're back in school,
once we can see each other every day,
It'll be different.
:/

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