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So.
Today was interesting, to say the least.

It was raining again,
For the third day in a ******** row. -_-;

I got to school, and Adam didn't show up at all,
But the rain got so bad, they had us go into the gym, and wait for the bell to ring.

The Band and Color Guard were in there already, playing away.

I looked over the crowd, and couldn't find Clarence there in the band, but then I remembered that he rode the bus with us this morning,
Because he was walking to the school, when it started raining. xD
Needless to say, he turned right around and went back home, thusly skipping practice today.

In any case, I found Adam, off in the corner of the formation, stepping in time, playing his horn,
And..
Wearing DiDi's jacket.

I was...Stunned, to say the least.
At first, I brushed it off, but..
The more I tried not to think about it,
The worse the thoughts became.

After only a few short seconds,
I was already putting two and two together.

I was figuring that he was cheating on me with DiDi.

Kinda off, I went to my classes, finding him all over her in the hallways.
Just as he's been for the past couple days.

I didn't really know what to think about it,

But during lunch, he made it pure and simple.

"I've been doing a lot of thinking, and..I don't think I can be gay anymore."
I swearz that's what he said.

I was like, "Whatever."
But inside, I was both flying, and falling.

I was wanting to talk to him about this last night,
But..

I didn't think he'd actually dump me like this.
And for that reason?
I mean, come on.

Clarence was right.
Amy was right.
Everyone was right.
I should have seen this coming.

Clarence was asking me on the bus if I want to talk about it,
But..
I was just telling him "No", "Not really", and "I don't see what there is to talk about".

But...
I think I'm going to tell him.
I don't have Adam holding me back, either.

And...
Well, what's the worst that can happen, right? :/

In any case, back to the Break-up..
What really irks me,
Is his reason for breaking up.
"I can't be gay anymore"
Is not a ******** reason to break up.
I know he's messing around with DiDi.
He's just not ******** man enough to admit it.

********.
And here I was,
Thinking, no,
Believing his ******** lies.

Oh well.
Am not going to talk to Adam for a while, now. :/

And either way,
We'll see just how much he "cared".
If he calls me, or at least texts me, telling me more about why he broke up with me,
Then at least I know he'll have some decincy.

But, knowing him,
He won't.
He just ******** won't.

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