I dreamed this really REALLY girly dream last night...
So, anyways. In my dream... I was in some department store, without my friends with me. And I was in the makeup section. I had on a usual purple shirt and magenta colored lipstick for some crazy reason, and [all too tipical] I was feeling awkward.
Suddenly, a glamorous and thin upperclassman Asian girl from one of my classes appears all of a sudden. In her curled long hair and dark skinny jeans and silver t-strap sandals and with a shiny metallic clutch purse (I had my lame puke-green discount store bag with me). It was the usual feeling of shallow inferiority.
Then two guys from school appeared... One a friend of a friend and the other that guy's friend (who I MIGHT just like a little) appeared. I walked over to try and talk with them, but they completely ignored me - acted as if I was not there at all. They went to the glamorous upperclassman girl (they don't even know her, but they knew me!!) and started to chat. I continued to try and get their attention, just to let them know that I exist and that I was there. No effect.
In the next scene, I was in my room and bawling loudly onto my made-in-China Hello Kitty bedsheet. Then they both appeared at my bedroom door (who knows how they entered my house, and who knows how they found out that I was inside and crying) and both began apologizing.
Then the friend of that friend-of-a-friend (the guy who I might just like a little) picked me up. Bridal position. I was still crying (so pathetic). He said gently: "You are so light!"
...sounds like it's from some shoujo manga. Like Kare First Love...
I'm still trying to figure out what it all means. Dreams must hold some meaning about our identities and secrets, right? I suppose this dream just means that...
- I'm still so very much low on self-esteem. And dependant on getting attention in order to feel okay?
- I'm STILL so easily jealous...
- I've got a slight crush in progress.
- I want to be... Thinner?
I SOUND SO FREAKISHLY PRE-TEEN GIRL-ISH. MAKES ME HATE ON MYSELF. scream
Oh well... Good to be real?
So, anyways. In my dream... I was in some department store, without my friends with me. And I was in the makeup section. I had on a usual purple shirt and magenta colored lipstick for some crazy reason, and [all too tipical] I was feeling awkward.
Suddenly, a glamorous and thin upperclassman Asian girl from one of my classes appears all of a sudden. In her curled long hair and dark skinny jeans and silver t-strap sandals and with a shiny metallic clutch purse (I had my lame puke-green discount store bag with me). It was the usual feeling of shallow inferiority.
Then two guys from school appeared... One a friend of a friend and the other that guy's friend (who I MIGHT just like a little) appeared. I walked over to try and talk with them, but they completely ignored me - acted as if I was not there at all. They went to the glamorous upperclassman girl (they don't even know her, but they knew me!!) and started to chat. I continued to try and get their attention, just to let them know that I exist and that I was there. No effect.
In the next scene, I was in my room and bawling loudly onto my made-in-China Hello Kitty bedsheet. Then they both appeared at my bedroom door (who knows how they entered my house, and who knows how they found out that I was inside and crying) and both began apologizing.
Then the friend of that friend-of-a-friend (the guy who I might just like a little) picked me up. Bridal position. I was still crying (so pathetic). He said gently: "You are so light!"
...sounds like it's from some shoujo manga. Like Kare First Love...
I'm still trying to figure out what it all means. Dreams must hold some meaning about our identities and secrets, right? I suppose this dream just means that...
- I'm still so very much low on self-esteem. And dependant on getting attention in order to feel okay?
- I'm STILL so easily jealous...
- I've got a slight crush in progress.
- I want to be... Thinner?
I SOUND SO FREAKISHLY PRE-TEEN GIRL-ISH. MAKES ME HATE ON MYSELF. scream
Oh well... Good to be real?
