Yep, stayed home sick today... sweatdrop And nobody cared... Shows how much i'm loved... cry And this medicine is absolutly putrid... xp But, tomarrow is almost here, and the following day (aka, saturday) I quit my job... Now i need to turn in the application to Hot Topic... Only to feel the scorn and rejection of my peers... But one good thing is that mom and Todd will be home saturday at midnight. blaugh ...It hurts to be alone so long... I'll be glad to see them... But in one way or another, i'll still be alone...
Wow, i'm getting more depressing every day... sweatdrop Should i be proud...? Or just deeply disturbed...? question Who cares...? No one but me... Oh, and since i missed school today, i had to call my poor Grandma at 6:30 a.m., and i still feel horrible about that... But to make it worse... The Shawn answered the phone... stare Yes, the Shawn... My sister's fiance, and the father of my two niece's... A jobless bum, who, along with Trisha (my sister), is feeding off of the little life left in my grandma and grandpa... And there is nothing i can do... Mom and Todd work, and i have school, so we can't keep the babies... (Elizabeth is 18 months, and Catherine is 7 months...) It is horrible... I am useless... Like Roy in the rain useless... Even more-so...
But, as i lose my place.... Again... I called this morning to have Momma (grandma) call me off, since i can't do it myself, but, like a normal person, she was asleep. So Shawn said he would tell her when she woke up. BUT OF COURSE NOT!!! So i called Trisha later to make sure he told her... Trisha said "Shawn forgot... But i told her." So, no problem. Until Momma calls at 4:30 to ask if i had called her cell... (I don't think so...) And i mention that i was sick today... Imagine the reaction... Of course, she had her no mention of the fact... So, i'll probaly get suspended tomarrow for "skipping" Polaris and Midpark... Great... I am hopeless... And i need to go clean now, so the house is better than perfect for mom and Todd... Well... Goodbye for now journal. *hug* I'm so glad that i finally have someone to talk to now... But unfortunatly, its already to late...
Wow, i'm getting more depressing every day... sweatdrop Should i be proud...? Or just deeply disturbed...? question Who cares...? No one but me... Oh, and since i missed school today, i had to call my poor Grandma at 6:30 a.m., and i still feel horrible about that... But to make it worse... The Shawn answered the phone... stare Yes, the Shawn... My sister's fiance, and the father of my two niece's... A jobless bum, who, along with Trisha (my sister), is feeding off of the little life left in my grandma and grandpa... And there is nothing i can do... Mom and Todd work, and i have school, so we can't keep the babies... (Elizabeth is 18 months, and Catherine is 7 months...) It is horrible... I am useless... Like Roy in the rain useless... Even more-so...
But, as i lose my place.... Again... I called this morning to have Momma (grandma) call me off, since i can't do it myself, but, like a normal person, she was asleep. So Shawn said he would tell her when she woke up. BUT OF COURSE NOT!!! So i called Trisha later to make sure he told her... Trisha said "Shawn forgot... But i told her." So, no problem. Until Momma calls at 4:30 to ask if i had called her cell... (I don't think so...) And i mention that i was sick today... Imagine the reaction... Of course, she had her no mention of the fact... So, i'll probaly get suspended tomarrow for "skipping" Polaris and Midpark... Great... I am hopeless... And i need to go clean now, so the house is better than perfect for mom and Todd... Well... Goodbye for now journal. *hug* I'm so glad that i finally have someone to talk to now... But unfortunatly, its already to late...
