i have been having these dreams lately...
its a sign i tell myself but i wont believe it...
usually i lay down on my bed... thinking. wishing he was here with me
laying right next to me... holding me..
he will never like me.. i say. he likes her.. he has a girlfriend.. hes single..
too many guys that i have mixed feeelings about.. that is when i start to dream..
there is this 1 guy whom i will not name he told me he liked me.. he flirted with me constantly he only sat next to me whenever there was a substitute teacher there. he told me things i wanted to hear.. then told me that 1 thing every girl likes to hear.. i like you. i wish u were my girlfriend.. then he asked me that very question that made my heart beat so fast.. will you be my girlfriend? Now at this very time this is real! not a dream yet. i will say my dream later. im just saying what happened 2 me sum time ago. so that is what happened. And what do i do? i stop. pause. and make the worst mistake. i shook my head in dissaproval. meaning no i dont like u and no i dont wanna be ur girlfriend. O.O mistake! i just lied to the guy i liked! but then i started to think.. this guy is really nice. but he has been with 2 of my friends before. and he is a bit to extreme in the bf department. but my god. he smiles i luv that. he hugs me and when he does he makes me feel.. important. i mean sumthing to him. he hugs me and he wont let go for about a minute. i really dont want him to let go but he does. but he has a girlfriend. then AHEM why is he flirting with another girl? he is a flirt. well to me. i ask his best friend (whitch happens 2 be one of my best guy friends also) i ask him ask him if he likes me. dont tell him its me but he told me and i didnt believe him. he says okie. so now what? i just wait til the time comes. i still wait lying on my bed wishing he was next to me. wishing i was his. well i have 2 go now i will write about the other guy later. then the DREAM! <span id="test23306113">. . .</span><br/><div id="post23306113" style="display:none; margin-right:75px;"> </div>
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