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Spilling your guts, ripping someone's heart out and killing them always combine. It is just timing I guess. For example, you are in love with someone so deeply; you feel you can trust them completely so you tell them everything about you.. even the most embarrassing stuff. After awhile, you feel that you are going to spend the rest of your life with this one person until something happens. Either they lie to you, cheat on you or break up with you. Sometimes all three of them.. that equals suicide. Most of the time, people lie to their spouses. It is like the new generation of relationships. Everyday I see people lie to each other just to make things move faster. We don't know if they are true or not.

Have you heard of a lie-lie? These do exist people, no joke. It can be a lie on top of another lie. The lie can be something so fake that is actually a bigger lie now. I know they can be called white lies.. what the ******** is that? The lies are see through maybe? We will never know, just like the age old question, "how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?".

How about ripping your heart out?: This is why many teenagers appear so emo, they destroy almost 100% of the happiness others have. It is appealing.. why? Everyone has their messy break-ups, but why do so many of us have to make it DRAMATIC! It is like a time destroyer.. we don't need to know why you can't move on. It is not our problem...it is yours.

I am guilty: If you feel so guilty about doing something, tell someone. It makes you feel better. I am here for people to talk to.I may not be your mom or your best friend. At least I am here, not ******** someone at the moment. I have had some of the experiences you have been through. I have been through break-ups lies etc. I am like your own personal psychiatrist.

I am a queen

I am the queen of gaia seriously. I am the queen of being noticed, being looked down upon. It is a vicious title, I am so fierce. I don't care about your slang or precious kitties. I don't care about your scarves or Katanas. They aren't even real to me. Your avatar may seem so cool but the person who controls might be the biggest b***h or a*****e ever. The popular Hollywood rooms are there to lure people in towards a pure envy. The host might be ******** awesome but I don't think so. I know money doesn't buy happiness. I was never happy being "hip". It was such a bore. You will never be me, you will never be the queen of Gaia.

P.S.
To all my friends, thank you for sticking with me all this time. I am so thankful for who I found on here. Love you all heart heart

Xoxo,
Syn