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This is my first journal entry. No confetti today though. Anyways. Life has been in a mood of suck recently. My favorite person in the world, Kite, has not been there three days now. Depressing. I hope he's alright, I really do. My mother is being evil as well. If you don't know me, you have no idea who my mother is. She's an evil b---- that enjoys being evil. Ever since I've been three, she's beaten me. Currently, she's the reason for my current theme song, Open Wounds. I hate living here so much, I just want to get away. I'm still two years and a few months away from graduating though, because I'm a sophomore. I just want to move away from here, and be able to go to college. She keeps saying that unless I am able to get a scholarship, I'll be working a minimum wage job for the rest of my life. Plus, she's the major suicide factor in my life, calling me worthless and ugly and stupid and such all the time. I'd probably be dead by now if it weren't for the fact that the few friends I have say not to die and such. Meh. ...I wish so many people didn't hate me at school too, just because I read all the time. They're all so spoiled though it seems, far too often. I wish I could punch them or something that would knock them into reality. But no, of course not. And as usual, I've been thinking a lot. Religion and the human nature are two of the things I think about the most, including the most amazing person in the world in stopping my thoughts for a while. That does make me happy...but yeah. So, I've been trying to figure out why people are so evil and such. It's like...me and another friend talk about religion and such a lot, and one time I was talking to a different person about it, but that person didn't really like to talk about it. So it's like...I think about it, and now I kinda get it. I wish religion wasn't such a big deal in the world today, but it is. Anyways, that's all for tonight. I'm just a random kid that's in love, signing off.