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Oh life. You thwart me so often, it much be a hobby for you by now. Gracious...I believe that I can say if my love goes away for his religion, that God is ******** with me. Apparently that is a fun thing nowadays. Ah, how do I know...I'm not religious. But I'm not atheist. Ah well.
*guitar solo*
Come on and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
Song I'm currently listening to.
So.
I must wonder, why are teenagers so damn irritating? People say that I'm one as well, being 15, yet I show few of the symptoms that can be associated with being a teenager. I'm not addicted to Twilight, instead reading magnificent novels by Piers Anthony and Anne McCaffery, I'm not a fangirl of anything, and...I just am. I don't know why, but I seem so different from many of the other people I've met in my life. I'll observe from the side. Perhaps that's what I am. An observer. To attempt to understand what or why humans are. Or perhaps I'm there to help those who are in hurt. Most of the friends I've ever had have divorced parents or worse. Is that a sign perhaps? They always leave in the end, where I end up emptier than I was before. It hurts to be betrayed or forgotten, even when you're used to it. I try to tell that to one certain person...but he always says that he wouldn't...but it's hard to believe anyone when it's happened since I was 5. Hm. It's funny. How big an issue religion is and how people always say that others are going to Hell because those blasphemous people worship a fake god. I mean, What the hell? Isn't part of religion being kind and forgiving, in any religion? I hate when people go to kill in the name of God, because what does that ever do for us? More innocent are killed than guilty.
So, only one religion is right. How? How could only one be right when there are so many? Technically, there are only 5 major ones, because of all the christianity based religions and all. So...why couldn't they all be real? Why couldn't it be to where if you worshiped your god or gods faithfully and truly, you could go to that certain heaven? I mean, a god could create other heavens or demi-gods or whatever. It's crazy.
People are just so hurtful...I know it's a part of life, but I hate it. School is close to painful. People just act like I don't exist though. I'm the girl that's not there. The one that fades away because she has no phone, no MP3 player, doesn't talk...I don't ever wear makeup, never fix up my hair, never wear anything that makes me look nice...no others think the way I do though. Well, few that I've met do at least. Few like manga or anime. Most guys only really like shooters. No one cares about learning or anything, about wonderful things...
Not at school at least.
Whatever. I'm ranting. I don't care though. This is mine, so I can rant.