Well s**t. There she goes again. Launching off at me. Again. Like normal, she's stressed about life. Shouldnt have had kids when you cant even control yourself. But then again, what do I know? Silly kid who does everything wrong. Not so great grades. Spends to much time with my friends. Wants to much. Or do I? Do I? Well I think your wrong.
I spend my days, living your life. My son, not yours. My house, not yours. My demons. Not yours. I told myself, I learned, that I'm not allowed to look up. I look down. No one up there is goin to help me anymore, not that they ever did.My eyes are gettin sleepy, tired of
this.
But should I be this? Im still a 9th grader, still a child, if you think about it. Not that you think about it. My hands hurt. They ache. Like my heart. I smile for my friends. They dont need another lost soul. Can you save me?
But you cant. No one can. He is gone, dead really. Should I have been through that? On my first day of high school no less? I take pills you know...headache pills, one day Ill take to many. Bet youll love me then
or not. Im not acccepted at school. Im one of the freeks, I dont really care about that. But sometimes I wish they would all die. She dosnt care about me. She goes out whenever. However long. Im left. In my prison. I bet Id be ok on my own. I would like it better. Cant even get things I need. I dont know what love is. Well I know what it is, but I dont think Ive ever had it. Maybe if I commited sucide, then she would uderstand. Or not. She never will. She's to wrapped up in her own s**t.
I hate being around them. And call them "family". I wonder what I did. I dont think it matters. I hate this. All of it. Cant wait to escape. Ill never talk to them again. One day.
This wont help me.
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This is about anything and everything that happens in my life and the world around me...except sometimes in poem form.
Collin James Renaldo. September 2nd, 2008.
Chelsea Brianna Oliver. November 1st, 2009.
May your lights shine forever in our hearts.
We love and miss you, rest in peace.
"I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answers~"
Chelsea Brianna Oliver. November 1st, 2009.
May your lights shine forever in our hearts.
We love and miss you, rest in peace.
"I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answers~"