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I remember Alex said that. When I'm happy I draw, when I'm unhappy I write.
Clever girl. She really was.
But... since I promised Anna, here's the awful list of things that are weighing on my mind:

1) Yesterday I decided that I wanted to make a big bowl of rice pudding with milk balls to eat with my friends at the end of the week. And then I figured out that ... As happy as it would make me to see if Roxanne eats as funny as her brother and receive Christa's inevitable and affectionate over reactions, and give that much deserved moment of anti-anxiety to Charlene ... That they weren't really the ones that I wanted to make breakfast for.

2) My Cousin is getting married in exactly two months. And that's nothing against her. But I don't want to be thinking about weddings right now. And not exactly two months from now either.

3) I have a note book full of letters, and I'm back to square one again as to how to get rid of them.

4) My stereo is dead.

5) That place that I go to sometimes doesn't feel the way it has for the past 6 years and it's covered in our fingerprints.

6) Track One means that as much disappointment as I was anticipating, Mary is still loved as much as she was 30 years ago.

7) ********... I just need to feel like I've been found.
It's like it's been months that I've felt like I've just been falling backwards and reaching out and only catching air and I need to be grabbed back. I need to feel worth being sought out for. I need to be caught.
Or at least have something to grab onto, you know?