I really don't know where to begin with things... Things, I suppose, have just been rather difficult ever since all the unfortunate series of events that took place two and a half years back. God-willing, I pray that none of you who have yet to experience such a tragedy as a divorce will never have to see a sight so grotesque and repugnant. However, outside of mere family matters, another tragedy is at hand. I have been in love with the same woman for some time now. It's nothing specific about her, it's just her. It's who she is. But she now has a boyfriend and a girlfriend in a three-some manner of relationship. I told her I was fine with it, and it's true. Whatever makes her happy. And we're young. Still in high school. Now is the time for us to get out and see the world through other perspectives. However, I worry constantly about her. I also know I like this other girl that I dated. I have a feeling that my first love wouldn't completely mind me dating this other woman, but my fear is, as my fear always is with any woman, the final outcome. Perhaps it's the fear of where the outcome is for the dater(s), or the bystander(s). Perhaps it's not the fear of outcome, or even the fear of pain, that bothers me. Perhaps it's where my faith colides with my desires. I don't know if I want or believe I am supposed to be... Who knows. That's what happens when an unstoppable force collides with an immovable object. Which succeeds? Which fails? Which rises in glory and victory? Which falls in bitter defeat? Tell me, my dearest friends, to which is it that my heart drives me? Is it to the desire of my heart of this specific time? Or is it the hunger of my soul that leads me down the specific path God has shown me?
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is CONVINCING
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Well if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small
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