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Being shy Being shy sux... You know, how you want to say something, but you can't.. And then it haunts you every waking moment of your life and it won't go away... EVER. I mean, it haunts you even while you sleep, and often a time you find yourself needing to think about that one thing to even GO to sleep... Yea, that's how I am.... And this wouldn't be a problem if I could just stop being a baby and speak up, but I don't think now's the right time for me to say anything.. In fact, I'm leaning on never is the right time... sweatdrop My peers annoy me... Why do I say this? Why tell you so you can annoy me too?? Anyway, that aside, it's Monday... I hate Mondays... I had a pretty cool weekend though.. I went to the mall, and this party.. It was all pretty cool to hang out w/ buddies all weekend.. Nothing makes me happier than my friends! 4laugh Oh, and I FINALLY started that fanfic... The Sango/Sesshomaru one... Yup, posted it on fanfiction.net. It's doing ok I guess.. We'll see... stare Speaking along the lines of fanfics, I've decided to create my own story... wink And guess what... I ACTUALLY STARTED IT!! Hehe. My friend Jennifer gave me an idea for a title: Endless Nightmare: The Glitch. xp It's about this girl named Raye who gets trapped in a virtual reality game really... Everyone who's read it has liked it, and Jennifer even wants to help me get it published, so I'm kinda put in a position where I have to finish it.. I'd be working on it now actually, but I need to expand on ideas..... cool I dunno what's up.. I usually have a lot to say... But I haven't lately.. I dunno. Maybe life is just getting less and less interesting.. neutral Kai, I don't plan on having anymore pens.. Don't ask anymore.. You ate them all.... confused Ah well.... OH YEA!! That stupid saying... Don't wait or it'll be too late.. That rhymed.. whee LOOOOOOVE YOU!!!!!! heart (hehe) Kit out! 4laugh

Posted by: RodIldKitsune Mon Oct 24, 2005 @ 10:26pm

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood
there wondering, fearing

Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever
dared to dream before

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Commented on: Mon Oct 24, 2005 @ 10:42pm


	being shy sux yes. but being shy only feuls the feeling of shyness i speak from expierience that's why i useually get looked at like a dumbass for saying whatevers on my mind. because being shy's simply worse than being looked at like a dumbass. and i'm sure i'll prove you wrong about the pen's in time. p.s. i love your siggy! 3nodding

Commented on: Mon Oct 24, 2005 @ 10:52pm


	So if I'm not shy, I'm dumb??? NO PEN FOR YOU!!! And I'm glad you like it.. 4laugh Thanks!

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Commented on: Mon Oct 24, 2005 @ 11:03pm


	how the hell did i call you dumb?

Commented on: Mon Oct 24, 2005 @ 11:39pm


	Oh wait.. I read that wrong.. So YOU are the dumbass... But how is that better than being shy?? "because being shy's simply worse than being looked at like a dumbass. " xp

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KAI_ISHIDA
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Commented on: Tue Oct 25, 2005 @ 10:45pm


	being shy is like extreme lack of self control you don't won't to do something or be something but you are even though it's not what you want or what you choose. what could be worse?

Commented on: Wed Oct 26, 2005 @ 12:03am


	You lost me....

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Tatsumi Takeshima
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Commented on: Thu Nov 03, 2005 @ 12:59am


	~Part 1~ I'm not sure how I'd fit here.... But I'll give it a shot anyways! sweatdrop * * * * * I can't even see myself typing all of that, that gots to be really really hard.... Well, at least for me. As you can see, me writing or typing... I can't really do either. All those years in Mrs. Jenkin's class really brought my typing speed up. All of those cursed years, me having to stay in her class 2 times in a row.... Anywho, back to the subject at hand... I'll try my best to word this out. ((Not so great at talking what-so-ever)) You are absolutely right on saying being shy sucks. You just can't help it at times, but from the inside, you really want to get this out. I am like this basically for my whole entire life... Sorry, kinda exaggerated. But seriously, it just occurred to me this year. I can't believe how in the world it'd start now instead of all those other times. I really feel the need to tell a certain person on how I feel, I need the courage to tell her what I think of her. But back to you Kit, you really need to start to feel unashamed about your feelings. You need to say it sooner or later, it might be too late before you know it. Sure this may not be the right time to say it, but maybe it is. It never hurts to try, I mean... What do you have to lose?

Commented on: Thu Nov 03, 2005 @ 01:01am


	~Part 2~ The whole entire moral to this tale is never be ashamed of yourself. Screw the people that may think differently about you, you'll always be you no matter what. Never let others put you down and take it to heart, you'll always have friends who'll back you up no matter what. They'll always stay by your side till the very end, isn't that what friends are for? ((Author's notes: See, I was terrible at this. I looked back at any mistakes I've done, maybe at least 3 times at the most. Remember all those times I said I felt like killing myself, sometimes I really mean it and sometimes I don't. Not being able to tell someone on how you feel really kills you from the inside out. Seeing that person, say... everyday, and knowing you had the chance to talk with him/her. But instead, you become too chicken to say anything. The next thing you know, your blaming yourself for being a coward. Missing your chance, then you realize the next day... Your thinking to yourself, What's the use in trying? I tend to do that a lot unfortunately. I can't seem to help it, I always seem to be too embarrassed to say even "hi" or something. But that's just me, I hope I was able to boost your confidence in any way. Take it easy Kit, and hopefully I'll see you next time... like class or something )) <--- If you want to see it, highlight it. Cool, isn't it? mrgreen

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Commented on: Thu Nov 03, 2005 @ 02:06am


	you poor thinghugglesyes shynessness sucks

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