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Anywho, I was sick today. And some of yesterday.. I threw up. Yay.... .. I hate being sick. I feel all hopeless, and no one really cares about me anymore.. It's depressing.

In fact, there are a lot of things that depress me... Like how you feel about a person, but it's never gonna happen.. EVER. Yea, that's depressing...

Or how you can never be yourself b/c you're always expected to be something else...

Even how you're afraid to speak your mind b/c you know it'll be pointless...

Ya, it's all depressing...

But I think what's most depressing of all is the nightmare I had.. When I was alone in my house and my whole life I was some rude, lonely old spinster.. And I was so old everyone knew I was going to die... And I realized that I was going to die w/o ever loving someone, and it hurt... It really did.. And I just don't know what to think anymore.. Will that be me??

I don't know, maybe I'm delusional... After all, I did puke up everything in me (yuck) and I did lack a good bit of sleep... Yet, somehow I managed to get that dream in and it haunted me even when I was awake...

And now I have to deal w/ one of my worse fears... Being alone... Not like I wasn't alone last night when everyone slammed their door close on me, but I mean really alone, lacking human bodies in the house w/ me..

Thanks for caring so much Chris... Not...

Anywayz, I dunno... I feel useless... Not to mention weak, hungry, and thirsty, but that's for other reasons... Maybe I'm paranoid...

Naruto fanfic.. The idea almost came back...

FEEL SO BAD!!! WANT TO CRY!!

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Wisdom, wisdom.. NEED WISDOM!! Need a friend... Pff. Need a boyfriend...

What's original about uniqueness if everyone's unique?!

AH!! THE DOOR!! THE DOOR!!

>.< Bye! Ciao! Sayonara! LATERZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!