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When did it come to this?
cold steel against my chest
my heart aches
why am I alive?

My life...
from the moment I was born
it was wrong
they told me
that I shouldn't be here
they feared me
so they cast me out
and so I was an outcast
A forbidden child...
that's what I was

I remember...
falling...
it seemed like forever
I was born at the bottom
so it seemed like
the only way I could go was up
but I just went farther down

They found me
and raised me
but my cruelty surpassed theirs
and they feared me
so they cast me out
and once more I was an outcast

I left for the world of hurt
The Ghost...he told me
my mother was dead
and my father was gone
so I left
and never came back
and still I was an outcast

Then I met you
I was so confused
you cared about me
no one ever had
and I slowly realized
I cared about you too
...Kyu...

And I finally found you
you did not know
who I was...
but you cared for me anyways
and I cared as well
...Chance....

I was no longer unwanted
I was no longer an outcast
But they are gone
Everyone is gone

Wise Wolf Raven...
once he left for the city that never sleeps
he used to come and go
like I did
but one day he left
and didn't come back

My other friends...
they were mortal
and they left me
one by one
and I missed them
more and more each time

These things...
I may not admit it
but they hurt
they hurt me so much
but that is not the worst

Chance....
you left me....
with harsh words said....
I never wanted it...
To end this way...

Kyu...
you left me too
out in the rain...
...with tears in my bloodshot eyes

You both are gone
because of me
Chance...
you deserved a better friend
Kyu...
I didn't deserve a lover like you
I'm alone again

Cold blade plunges into my chest
I cry out in pain
but there is no one there to hear me
did my arms move on their own?
no
I wanted this

I fall to my knees
crimson blood pouring from my body
then everything goes black
I wanted this?
no
I regret it now
but it is too late

I can almost see you, feel you
Chance...
you touch my hand
Kyu...
you stroke my cheek
but then you are gone
for you were never really there

Chance...
Kyu...
I'm sorry...
I love you...
...goodbye

...or is it hello?
maybe...
just maybe...
when I reach the other side...
...I'll see you again

But that is then
Here...
now...
I have no one

There's no one here
no one left
no one to cry
no one to care
and as my last breath leaves my body
for a moment
I am an outcast once again.