If you have been keeping up with my journals, you all know that I was in the run for Salutatorian. However, as of the 26th of January, I come to find out that my GPA wasn't sufficiently high to claim the title. I have worked so hard for this moment; dreamt about it, yearned for it, desired it, but at the end, it was only a heart-breaker. I don't ever know why I tried so hard, I don't know why I even bothered. I was against people were breathed differently, people that have been trained by professionals since nativity.
I, on the other hand, was just a fool. I feel so stupid, because for a moment, I did believe that I was good enough, for a moment I thought that life was going to give me a chance. I truly believed that if you worked hard, if you sweated and overcame hardships that your hard work would pay off. However, I now question that belief. An inner doubt has been instilled in me--almost as if I didn't accomplish anything.
Please, all of the readers out there, I hope I haven't disappointed you. I know that I'm rather braggadocios; that I am arrogant and presumptuous. Although, it hurts to being the Salutatorian, I still have one more goal to try to achieve---getting my AA. The only way I can give my high school years any worth whatsoever is if I at least become the first student in Moore Haven Jr.-Sr. High history to get his/her AA. I pray to the lord and leave it in his hands, to bless me and everything that I do. For without this, I don't think that I could even look people in the face. Anyways, thank for you reading this, and I apologize for not being good enough.
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