well i think i ******** myself over again. my mom somehow made me hate myself for being who i am. and now i dropped all my classes for next semester. i know, i'm 20 and i shouldn't listen to her, but because of her, i don't know why i'm going to school. at first it was for me, for my love for the arts....but now...after experiencing some diffculties at school, i dunno if i really wanna go through with it. plus, my home problems....sad part is, i have enough things for my own house....n_n;; soo...yeah...i'm planning on moving out...so i'm taking the next sememster off so i can actually find a job and leave the damn house for good. but all i need is someone to move in with. or a good place ta be rooming in.
*sigh*....i hope lisa isn't mad at me. i have my stupid ways of things....it's just me. >.<;;
....nyuuuu...........im gonna drive on wednesday...that is if i don't stay over at mai's place. which i might end up doing....but i needa go and talk to kelly services ta see if i can actually work there, and go to the mall and return all them papers that i got. so yeah...put out resumes....re-su-me....hehehehe i hate that word. lol is tha a japanese word or what?
*stares at keyboard*.......*sigh*.......stupid time! stupid class! O.O! O WAIT! im actually having fun in my intro to pc art. hehehe i made this cute animation of a guy then the camera moves up on the guy's face then moves over and u see a girl's eye then the camera moves out and then u see the girl and then hearts popping out behind her. it's soo cute!! lol i'll put it on here whenever i'm done with it. i think it's awsomeness!!!! WOOOO AWSOMENESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!! hahahaha i like it. i had fun making it. it's funny cause at first, i had just 4 slides. lol and then i looked around and see that everyone has like 20 something, then i look back at mine and laughed to myself saying, hehehe i only have 4 slides. so then i decided to work more on it. so yeah. i added some blinkings and smilings...and yeah hearts and a girl. lol it's just funny. i laugh at it. gawd! it was like a 30 min thing because i had fun doing it. lol or was it actually 3 hours? lol oh well. i had fun. i can't wait ta work on it some more. but first i gotta ask the professor ta see if i'm doing it right. lol cause i have a feeling i'm just bsing the project like how i always do. lol but in the end she does like it....i hope she doesn't want too much details. o.o cause....that will be soo ******** hard to do!! >.< gawd! just be happy my animation so far isn't stick figures!!!
but anyways O.O i hate that game!! i died. >.< stupid....stupid game....i got it because i thought it would be fun. so i brought it over ta lisa's place on saturday so when i'm online matt would have something to do, since it was already dark. because apartments aren't open at night. >.<;; so yeah. and i was online most of the time but that was only at night O.O;; so...my bad!! lol and yeah. i hate that game. >.< but overall...i SUPPOSE it's alright. lol maybe i'll play the game whenever i'm bored.
well....my mind has been thinking. and i really need a time off school. and i mean i NEED time off school. i have it too long. i hate it. i'm beginning to hate myself for going to school...and me not knowing why i'm going. but...yeah. i hope lisa will understand. because i honestly need to pay off my bills, and i'm the type of person who doesn't do too well under pressure. so yeah....family and school...plus work...hell no! i can't handle the damn pressure. >.< nyuuu
anyways....i needa rest...maybe i'll go home early and work on my logo project that's due tomorrow. lol i still needa work on that. >.< nyahhh!! *swarms!* i dun wanna work on it tho! it sucks like eggs!
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