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This was suppose to be posed on Saturday, February 28. Yesterday.
This was it. Over 70 schools were entered into the competition in Honolulu, Oahu.Our hearts throbbed in our chest as the lights flashed around on the contestants, the stadium filled with people. The camera shooting us with a lens. Yup. This was *BBTS.
Cherry -chan and I had been chosen to represent our school in the BBTS talent show competition in Honolulu, Oahu. You see, I had one first place in our schools talent show on November errrr . . . 16th? 2008 and Cherry-chan won for second place. As representatives of MWIS we were on a flight to Oahu to compete because of our Talents [Chery: vocals Yuki: piano]. Our supervisor, Anderson Sensei, came with us because we were still minors. And we had to sprint to our flight because it was partly late. Whew! Tired ^^;
Nervousness had hit my spine when we were flying on the plane. I was getting into my seat of the plane and without any music, I knew I wasn't going to do as well as I had planned.
Every moment of the time, Cherry-chan and I tried to put in as much practice time as we can, but in the end, it didn't work out as much.
Now we were at the stadium. It was another two hours before Cherry and I went on and already, the staff had made several mistakes on our names, divisions and songs. For example, they put us into a group even though we weren't together and spelt our name wrong > sad
Right now, it was elementary schools first. And there were lots of good little kids with awesome talents. Mostly singing, bu they were so awesome! Like this one girl who was in the 3rd grade, she sang "single ladies" and "if I were a boy". She reached the high notes like baby picking up an object! She made it look so easy!
But it wasn't. Tough crowd,but I know that Cherry-chan will do better in the middle school divisions. The 3rd grader won first place for best female vocalist.
Cherry-chan and I kept reporting back stage to see if the middle school teams would get lined up yet, but no. When it was time for them to do so, my ...well, our hearts, were throbbing like hell!
We were lined up for our acts and trust me, there were a lot of talented looking people here. A rock band, group dancers, and well dressed pianist! Okay, well, let's look over the pianist. They were Japanese pianist wearing well dressed black tuxedos, mopped swapped black hair over the tallest one, both had glasses and, they were brothers! They were looking over their sheet music, studying the notes and finger articulations. I take a glance at their music and widen my eyes! Their notes go pretty fast and it's pretty well styled! There's no way my slow song would be able to compete with their fast looking piece. They look at me and I notice that the tall one [his name is Taro, I find that out in the end] is pretty cute looking, like a mixture of Kaname's boyfriend and Kotarou [mostly Kotarou] mixed together. I felt myself blushing and I turn away.
Time skip. When it was my turn to go on stage, I felt my heart racing. Two hostess were going to introduce me to the audience and that's when I get homesick. I miss Kotarou, Kira my sister, Karin my cousin, MWIS, My father and my step mother, home. I look back at Cherry-chan, who's smiling at me, telling me I'll do great. I give her one last hug and the the spot light is on me.
I walk across the stage, mummers in the audience. "Who is that again?", "Is she good?","She's playing the piano?" I ignore them, thinking about everyone who supported me. Who helped me get up here. Who wished me luck, like the Japanese pianist, Taro. I remember him wishing me luck and me wishing him luck. This was going to be on TV. Don't screw up. I've worked so hard.
The piano is there. It's an electric keyboard like the ones used for acoustics. The pedal is there, a white foot plate thingy. The stage crew adjust the seat for me by stacking three chairs on top of each other. I look out to to audience one last time and take a breath. This is it.
I Look down at the keys and see that it's slightly dark. The lights are flashing every where, but not on the piano. My wrist is sprained and it hurts from Friday. There are so many things wrong at the moments, but don't do anything about it. I just play.
Aizome.
It's going well so far. It's slow, nice, peaceful. But I hear the audience murmuring again. "This is boring.", Why is she up there?", "That's not real talent."
The audience is bored to my song. I'm thinking about Kotarou, how he wold want me to play. I'm still doing great. Keeping my boring tempo, until the middle arrives.
I'm talented. I can play the piano. I'll show them. I bring up the speed and right when big open chords show up, I fall.
I couldn't see the keys. I tried to reach F# but my wrist crumpled in sharp pain. I try to keep a straight face but I look down. It hurts so much and I press F natural instead. I try to fix my mistake by keeping the same tempo, but it just get's worst. Near the end, I let my fingers fall on two octaves E and G# in the middle but my fingers slip and I also play D in that chord. I'm a failure, no point in wining now. I've worked so hard, but not hard enough.
I don't say anything. I just look down and walk off the stage. My wrist is in throbbing pain, I couldn't see the keys. No chance in me winning.
"Well, that was beautiful. Let's give another hand for Yuki." says the hostess but I knew she didn't mean it. I was terrible.
I'm still walking off stairs, the Japanese boy who looked like Kotarou, Taro, was there. Anderson sensei is close by too. She had just told me how great I was, even though I sucked. Taro sees me, he's smiling when suddenly another pierce of pain jolts through me.
I fell off the stairs! It was quiet and it just happened. I accidentally stepped into a gap and then I trip on the next Two steps. Anderson sensei couldn't help me. She was two far away now. Taro [I feel weird using his name] the pianist couldn't help me either. He just looks at me and I looked at him. I didn't fall completely, I just tripped, fell and before I could fall face flat on my face, l grabbed onto the bar. Embarrassed, I could feel all eyes on me. My foot was in pain, my fingers, my wrist again. He opens his mouth to say something but I get up and look at the ground. "I'm fine." I say and Run out through the back stage. The spotlight is all his now.
Judgment. Cherry had already sang her song, "The voice within" which might I add was very beautiful. She had a pretty singing voice, And I was expecting he to win.
She didn't. I felt disappointed for her because I knew she should have won. I mean, who doesn't LOVE her voice!?
Variety category. My heart is throbbing again even though I knew I wouldn't win. They announce 2nd place which is the rock band. I smile at them as they went to claim their trophy. Now 1st place. Pound Pound Pound. Doki Doki doki doki doki. The sound of my heart pounding.
They call out the name which is the Japanese pianist and his brother. The crowd goes wild and I understand why. Cherry and I walk off the stage right after the 1st place winner was declared. Disappointed a little, Anderson sensei leads us to our rented car and drives us to the airport.
When all thee of us arrive in the plane, I feel tired and take a nap. I dreamed about the competition, about Kotarou, the piano. I dreamed about singing it to him, me playing the song and singing, him next to me his head on my shoulder. I dreamed about that. I even included Taro in it.
I wake up from my dream and see we're in our home town airport. I miss this place and get out from my seat. Were walking out the airport, my head sill humming the tune of the song. And then add the lyrics:
Asaki yumemiji towa ni nageki mo sesu [Unable to even have a shallow dream, I grieve eternally]

Tsuki no hikari kokoro terashidasu [The moonlight illuminates my heart]
Moyuru hana no mai michishirube [The dance of the burning flowers is my guide sign]

Karamitsuku ayamachi no uta mune o shimeru [The poem of the intertwining mistakes binds my chest]

Hatenu kawa ni te o sashi nagasou [I reach my hands into the endless river and let them drift]
Omoi tsumeta koto no ha ai ni somete [The words filled with thoughts are dyed indigo]

Ai ni Somete [Dyed in Indigo]
I thank Aderson sensei. We thank her for everything. Cherry and I did so and that was before we had to depart from each other.I look back at Anderson senei at the airport when my ride arrives. She starting to walk back to her car in the parking lot. I'm smiling and I jump into the passengers seat next to Rie neechan and we drive home. I tell her all about my adventures in oahu and she just says. "Yuki, we're all proud of you."

Dedication:
I wanted to dedicate the song that I had played on for BBTS to Kotarou-kun. Through thick and thin, you've always been by my side no mater what. I thank you for every thing.
And also to the student government at MWIS. Without your, support we wouldn't have gotten here, where we are now.
Many thanks!