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He exist I don't but I will. He says he doesn't want it but I know he does. It's my "sorry" present. "My thank you" present . . . my present for my "brother"
A bento filld with love.
I never thanked Kotarou for what he did on my birthday. What he let me do on my birthday. Even though he forbids me from hugging him, I never really said a decent thank you. And I never really apologized for what people thought I did to him but didn't really know what I did. So now I'm filled with guilt and I 'm thinking, what's the best way to say "I'm sorry/Thank you" other than making a bento?
Usually in tv shows, you see school girls expressing (or flirting . . . to be honest, I don't really know what flirting is xD) their love to a guy they like by giving a hand made bento. Partly true because the to guys, I guess, a well cooked meal will really get their attention.
I guess I'm really doing this because 1.) I feel guilty and 2.) some where deep Deep DEEP down, I still have feelings for Kotarou more than a brother. [Notice that I used 'Still' as in we went out before].
So I tell him I want to make a bento for him and he says "don't" and I ask why. He doesn't give me a reason, all he says is "because". This goes on for the rest of the day until lunch when I seriously ask for a reason. He replies back saying "Because people will think we're going out again and don't want to embarrass you." or something. I think it's sweet but for some reason, I rally want to make him one, so I just plan it.
I was thinking (for the bento) I add some traditional foods inside the box to make it colorful ad cute. Foods like Hosomaki sushi filled with a small piece of cucumber, onigiri with adorable faces on them, a boiled egg (pealed), baby carrots, grapes, uzumaki fish cake (because he's fond of the anime "Naruto" wink , shredded cabbage and strawberries.
Yeah, not so great with bento making so I may need help.
:3