This is more of a diary to me, a public diary. Don't read to much into the things I say. Today in school I managed to pull a flawless trick in what was suppsoed to take a whole week to make (science project) into a day! I swear I'm like a lying devil but worse rolleyes anyway I hate not telling my mom for the past four months that ive had a science project due. I'm an evil person aren't I? That's what I think and know. In my brain everything runs a bit differently. Most things that are bad are ice and perfect for me. Anyway after school I went on maple story. It's my favorite thing to do, I'm kinda addicted to it. Is that healthy? Who cares stare My friend julia is making me listen to a different type of music now. It's awsome I'm glad I gave it a chance for once. Well like I said this dairy will probably be useless but it helps a little....Well on maple story today I had to wait another three hours till my good friends got on. I hate the time difference gonk but thats time right? Well when my friends finaly got on I think I practically skipped a beat in my heart confused dont know why....well....that's me.....I'm still worried about that poem I wrote about my friend last week. Kinda scared myself on what I wrote not usually things I write...wanna see what I mean?..I'll show you.
When I see your face I smile
But on the inside I cry with deep sorrow,
You hurt me once and you hurt me twice
Yet I just can't show my hatred.
I curse your name at night,
My head goes into a deep dark hole
My heart crumbles yet I still can't
Show my hatred for thee.
I plan on doing one thing
but when I see you I don't do it,
Is it a curse you have laid on me?
A curse you call love?
For love is the worst thing to happen to me
I just can't see what it is,
Love hurts, Love is despair
Why can't I lift this curse?
It hurts me here and there
It's slowly killing me now
Bit by bit my heart goes
Yet I do not dare to scream.
For if I did who would hear?
Me,myself, and I will
Normal hearts go bump
my heart goes bleh
You have me in this box with no light
You gave me something I do not want
Take it back i plead thee
For it hurts and is killing me.
My face shows no tears
For I am tired of crying and have dried out
I cannot smile and I cannot cry
I now only have anger
Anger for you and for her you see
For I am a gentle leaf
Once you break me
I cannot be put together again
I have tried tape and I have tried glue
No use, no one is listening,
So im telling thee now break my heart once more
and you will see my wrath of anger.
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creepy aint it? Not like me to write something like this. Im a tad bit scared of how Iv'e been acting too. Im usually so playful and fun, but lately Iv'e been showing a soft side....and an eviler side...could this mean something?...I'll think more about it tomorrow....bb for now. (Ended writing at 8:43)
creepy aint it? Not like me to write something like this. Im a tad bit scared of how Iv'e been acting too. Im usually so playful and fun, but lately Iv'e been showing a soft side....and an eviler side...could this mean something?...I'll think more about it tomorrow....bb for now. (Ended writing at 8:43)
