I really didn't mean to write down so much in that frickin' entry....I always end up writing depressing things in my journal and then I get mad at myself cause it just depresses other people. Sorry 'bout making you depressed too. I'm ok now really, it was just a bad day. There are plenty of good things in my life too that make me happy I just can't think of them when I have bad days. I don't need you at my house every day. I don't even care if you only come over once every two weeks. The only thing I do care about is that when you are over at my house, on your own suggestion no less, you don't spend the entire time on the phone with someone else.....I wouldn't even have minded if you talked a few hours, but you talked the whole time ya know....then when I wanted you to look at houses and share my opinion with someone.....you just complained about Logan following you, then you didn'tt even get off the phone when we went bowling. I don't mind being ignored sometimes, I'm used to it. I just don't want to be ignored the whole time. If you want to talk to adam on the weekends, stay at your house and do it k? If you don't want to come over then just, say so, it's not like I'll hate you for wanting to spend time at your house. You don't even have to make excuses, just tell me your gonna stay home. I adjust to change quickly, I'll be fine in a few days I'll start remembering what the hell I used to do when we first moved here....I know it was something that I really had fun doing......I will remember.....*sigh* one thing me and Hana definatly have in common is our memory, I mean it's only been like....what a little less than a year? I don't know. I'll find out. I'm productive I'll find something, all those blueprints I made, I could start on those projects. I have lots of Christmas shopping to do anyway.....I'm really busy this time of year which is why I've never been deppressed. I have to work on Christmas this year though.....and so does my mom so when she gets home I have to go to work.....She said we might take off somewhere after Christmas and have our own Christmas instead of having it on the real Christmas. That sounds pretty....well it's different so I don't know how it's going to work out but it's better than squeezing it between 2:30 and 4:30. I'm actually in a really good mood today and this one guy is supposed to come over and help me with Geometry, it's the same guy that didn't show up on Sunday.....but oh well, hopefully he shows up right? Yeah everything will be good today, I can feel it! Yeah!
 HanaJaganshi · Wed Nov 17, 2004 @ 02:01pm · 0 Comments |
