Diary,
Tonight I was to date Youssef, unfortunately he never showed. Last night, he left me at about 12:35am. And I haven't seen him, nor heard from him since. I fear he is unsafe, hurt, or in trouble. Last night, he told me of a fight he was sadly invovled in. Once he left me last night, I felt a strike of fear that he wouldn't come back. My fear has been realized.
I need to hear from him, or see him and soon. Im scared to tears at this moment. Youssef is, Lord knows how many miles away from me, and being away from him is already hard enough. But the fear of him being in danger and not being there is the scariest thing I can imagine.
I could cry from how afraid I am at this moment. Im trying not to, actually. I constantly keep switching back and forth from Gaia, Pokemon, and Youtube, to my e-mail to see if he's written to me or if he is able to chat.
I have to see him... I already know I will be crying myself to sleep tonight. Not only from being afraid, but from missing him so much. Its only a little after the hour before midnight. I still have time for him to return to me. I don't know how much longer I can wait. I just want to go to sleep (though, I am not tired) and wake up to him. Wake up, and see/know he is alright.
Diary, I fear he is not well. I don't know what I should do. I feel so useless. I just hope he is safe. Thats all I care about. That he's safe, and he's home, and well. I can't stay here anymore. I have to clear my mind of things. I can't even sing anymore... and that is saying alot. I always sing, always have, always will. I can still sing if Im in the hospital, or if I just got beat on, on my way to school, in my room, when Im with Youssef.... and... now..... there's nothing......
I pray to God he's safe.
Until tomorrow beckons,
Farewell Diary
Snow-Crystal Angel~
NakatamiHigurashi Community Member 
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