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I've Been Housing All This Doubt-- I'm very hypocritical. I'm very shallow. I'm very self-centered, And I'm very harsh. I've been told for a long time that I've got so many great qualities, But to me, all of those I listed, and hundreds more, Just completely negate those positives. And when I realize just how much pain I've caused some of my most important friends, I just want to run away and leave it all behind. So at least then I won't have to face my mistakes and problems. Sad thing is, That's what I'm trying again. My mind's been made up-- I'm leaving the minute I can. This next year, I'm going to spend all my free time looking up colleges in the north. Somewhere, anywhere far away from here. I don't want to continue living in this world of regret and could-haves. I'll probably just do it all over again once I'm somewhere else, But I guess I'm hoping against hope that I'll finally learn. Who knows? Maybe I will.

Posted by: Yellow_Coated_Bananas Sun Apr 26, 2009 @ 10:58pm

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okiedokoro
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Mon Apr 27, 2009 @ 09:17am

Perhaps this will be the last I see or say of this matter. Perhaps that is for the best.

No legs, or wings, or thrusters will EVER let you get away from your heart. Despite what your mind may say, it is impossible. And to kill the part of you that feels is all the worse. Don't let it lie to you - feeling (if only pain) is better than feeling nothing at all. Mark my words: until you figure out the real reason why you feel the way you do, you will not ever be able to "learn" otherwise, and you will not ever find yourself the better.

Why am I telling you all this, you may ask. Because I would have liked someone to have told me the same so long ago. Perhaps where you are meant to go isn't far away, but wherever it is, don't forget to remember.

Blue_Mage_Jaio
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Tue Apr 28, 2009 @ 03:39am

I second Jose's motion.
And, I really don't like finding out you harbor all of this by yourself.
I want to help you.

You could NEVER hurt me.
Or anyone else.
I can't see you doing that.

Sure we all make mistakes...
And we learn from them.
Sure things may look bleak.
But don't let that influence everything you do.

EVERYONE screws up.
Not just you.

I'll always be here for you.
Distance, time, weather, it doesn't matter.
I am and always will be your best friend.

And I'mma make DAMN sure you don't have to suffer alone.

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