How I think
The way I think can be complicated sometimes. But in short I was raised as a gentleman and old fashioned gentleman. It's my belief that I must be able to provide for the girl I care about no matter what. If it's the other way around than I'm a shame to gentleman everywhere. I mean I feel bad every time she buys me something. But that's not to say that I believe she should stay at home and tend the house. If she wants a career then that's her prerogative. Oh, and if anything happens it's most likely my fault. That's how I think in a nutshell.
Every thing that's happened to me in order of which it happened...
The good and the bad...
(well everything I can remember)
1. Mental and physical abuse
2. My dad tries to kill himself
3. My nan dies(the grandmother I cared about)
4. I met my GF
5. I get accepted to college
6. I get a under the table job as a dish washer
7. My mom tries to kill herself
8. The combined stress of the attempted suicide and the job causes me to quit the job.(I quit the day I found out my mom attempted to kill herself. I tried to ask for the rest of the day off and the other guy never showed up. and at the end of the night I couldn't take it anymore.)
9. I go to college leaving my GF at home.
10. I go a year seeing my GF once maybe twice a month(before it was nearly once a day.)
11. I get A's, B's, and C's my first semester.
12. second semester begins and I end up getting the hardest history teacher in the school which somehow screws up my rhythm to my other classes.(I HATE history.)
13. My dad goes to jail.
14. my grades go down the drain.
15. I find out my GF may be accepted to go to the college I'm going to.
16. I'm at the point where it's my belief that I failed all my classes which means I may be suspended(don't know what that entails)
17. I found out I have a financial block of over $600 so they won't allow me to apply for classes for the fall of 09/10
Conclusion...
So, me flunking out of college means that I can't get a decent career to support a family. I'm a failure. and being kicked out means I have to pay off everything sooner and no job will hire me because I have no experience. Under the table is illegal so I can't mention it. The only way to get rid of the debt it if I die. And if I die that means my GF can find a BF worthy of her.
Soooo....
Does that make sense now?
The way I think can be complicated sometimes. But in short I was raised as a gentleman and old fashioned gentleman. It's my belief that I must be able to provide for the girl I care about no matter what. If it's the other way around than I'm a shame to gentleman everywhere. I mean I feel bad every time she buys me something. But that's not to say that I believe she should stay at home and tend the house. If she wants a career then that's her prerogative. Oh, and if anything happens it's most likely my fault. That's how I think in a nutshell.
Every thing that's happened to me in order of which it happened...
The good and the bad...
(well everything I can remember)
1. Mental and physical abuse
2. My dad tries to kill himself
3. My nan dies(the grandmother I cared about)
4. I met my GF
5. I get accepted to college
6. I get a under the table job as a dish washer
7. My mom tries to kill herself
8. The combined stress of the attempted suicide and the job causes me to quit the job.(I quit the day I found out my mom attempted to kill herself. I tried to ask for the rest of the day off and the other guy never showed up. and at the end of the night I couldn't take it anymore.)
9. I go to college leaving my GF at home.
10. I go a year seeing my GF once maybe twice a month(before it was nearly once a day.)
11. I get A's, B's, and C's my first semester.
12. second semester begins and I end up getting the hardest history teacher in the school which somehow screws up my rhythm to my other classes.(I HATE history.)
13. My dad goes to jail.
14. my grades go down the drain.
15. I find out my GF may be accepted to go to the college I'm going to.
16. I'm at the point where it's my belief that I failed all my classes which means I may be suspended(don't know what that entails)
17. I found out I have a financial block of over $600 so they won't allow me to apply for classes for the fall of 09/10
Conclusion...
So, me flunking out of college means that I can't get a decent career to support a family. I'm a failure. and being kicked out means I have to pay off everything sooner and no job will hire me because I have no experience. Under the table is illegal so I can't mention it. The only way to get rid of the debt it if I die. And if I die that means my GF can find a BF worthy of her.
Soooo....
Does that make sense now?
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To speak frankly...
I don't really know what to say to this.
Besides give it some time...
I doubt your GF would want anyone but you.
I know for me if something were to happen to Bryan I would be lost...
I'm sure she feels the same.
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