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I'm just going to write about nothing right now because I can. I don't want to complain because that seems to be all that I'm ever doing right now. I want to be happy, I should be happy, everyone deserves to be happy. Thank you all for being with me and caring about me now and putting up with me right now. I may not seem like I appreciate it but I really do. I just want this whole mess to end so that things can move forward. As far as I can see that is probably the best for everyone at this point. How hard could it be to make a decision as such? I wish ya'll could be here with me going through it with me. You would probably notice the changes in me emotionally for the time being. He has been putting me on an emotional rollercoaster since I started liking him. Is it worth it though? Why do I still hold on? Do I really care THAT much? It's so confusing, what is going through my head right now.