Diary,
Hello! Its been much too long since we've last spoken. I need to know why my dear friend Erick is no longer listening to me. I fear that he is upset with me and wants nothing more to do with me. He claimed I was his sunshine but now he doesn't seem to want me around. What have I done to yet another friend of mine? He may be the 100th or so friend I have lost over something I've done or created. I was irritable one night and left him and my other friend alone. Idk why he'd be so upset over something so little. Oh well, I have not much more to say.
Youssef is in the hospital. He was hurt during a fight and the injury got worse at work. Sad thing is, when I didn't see him last night, I thought he may have forgotten about our movie date and was quite frankly a bit upset with him. And then I find out he's in the hosptial? I feel so terrible now. cry
I hope he can forgive me.... um.... something happened yesturday...... I need to tell Youssef but Im afraid to. My somewhat friend, Dan, was sexually harrassing me yesturday. I didn't like it and I was afraid to leave. If he was my friend and cared about me he wouldn't do such a thing and I realized he wasn't my friend. But a part of me wouldn't let him go. I was terrified for some reason. I want to tell Youssef but Im really afraid to. I need help and guidance. I prayed to God for help, but yet no answer has come my way. I prayed for strength to stand up for myself and tell the truth to Youssef. I feel so ashamed and guilty for what has happened yesturday. What if I am to blame for his behavior? Did I lead him on somehow? I don't believe thats possible, he was the one who started it all. Im still afraid, what should I do? No one seems to answer me. I can't breath. I haven't had this feeling since when I was depressed a few weeks back. I need to tell someone. But Im really scared of Youssef's reaction. I can't tell my family. They won't let me on the computer ever again and I wouldn't be able to see Youssef anymore. I need help.
Anyways, in other news, I've thought about reading the Bible. Its a big a** book, but still I want to read what God had to say. I started reading this series called 'Left Behind >The Kids<' and I want to be prepared for the vanishings if they ever occur. People believe something terrible will happen in 2012, I wonder if there is anyway to predict whats going to happen. The more and more I read this series, the more I start to fear for my future. If there will be one anyways.
Well, I have not much more to say. Im going to stop now while Im ahead. See you later Diary.
Until another day,
Farewell Dear Diary
Snow-Crystal Angel~
NakatamiHigurashi Community Member 
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