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This is a letter that I wrote for my dear coworker Dawson. I have no intention sending it. You see, he is very picky about his women, and I doubt he would go for a confused, less than innocent 17-year-old girl. There are so many things keeping me from him that I really shouldn't even think about a relationship, but I am a mere teenager who can't control her emotions some of the time. I felt that I should at least get my emotions out and tell him how I feel without actually telling him. I want to know his reaction, but if he ever read it I don't know what I'd do. You can see how I am torn. So, dear reader, I hope that you will give me you honest opinion about what I should do or just what you think about the letter in general. I know I shouldn't display such facts on the internet where anyone can read this, but an unbiased opinion from someone who has not idea who I am is what I really need. I would really appreciate your help.
Dear Dawson, I've never really understood why people say "dear" at the beginning of letters. It's just been engrained in our minds since childhood to say that. It really has no personal aspect to it. One would argue that simply putting their name is less personal, and I agree, but I stand by my statement. If anyone wants their letter to begin with a meaningful statement they'll put "my" in front. Or they'll use different words such as "dearest" or "beloved" or "my sunshine" if you want to get fancy. But when I say, "Dear Dawson," I mean my dearest, by beloved, but not my sunshine. That's not my style. I have desperately wanted to tell you that ever sice I met you that I have been attracted to you. Admittedly, at first it was physically. What can I say? I like red heads. But as time went on and I got to know you, your hair started to fade and your personality shined through. My attraction grew with each passing minute I spent with you. I know that I really shouldn't feel this way, but I am only human. Why shouldn't I feel this way you ask? Well There's the age factor for one. I'm 17, you're 20. That's a pretty big difference in my book. There is also maturity level. I am more mature than some girls my age, but your maturity level is way beyond mine. It's almost as if I'm am a small child and you are an old man. Almost. I could be with a nice red head my age, but I look at Philip and there's nothing. Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy and any girl would be crazy not to love him. But I would be crazier to go for the wrong Zornes brother. You could say that everything I'm feeling is puppy love, but I wouldn't. I have liked a lot of guys, and I've never felt this way towards any of them. And none of them have had such a positive impact on my life. I really feel that I've grown since being your friend. And my english has improved according to some. Will I ever use the word "defiled?" No more than you would use "pumped" as an adjective. But it is still a good $5 word none the less. To sum up everything that I have said, I have very strong feelings for you, Dawson. I'm not saying that I love you, but I'm not saying it couldn't happen either. I know the chances of us being together are slim, but it is still my current hope. Once we have grown our separate ways, my feelings will fade and I'll meet an attractive math major in the Husky marching band and he and I will live happily ever after. If only. I just wanted you to know and I hope things can remain the same or close to it.
Sincerely, Elena
P.S. I really am being sincere. It's not just a letter ending engrained in my mind since childhood.
P.S.S. I apologize for any spelling or grammatical errors. I'm not an english nazi like you.
wemo-chyan · Thu May 14, 2009 @ 02:32am · 0 Comments |
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