Dark. Cold and gray. Very pale. Melancholy. Gloom. Misery. Sorrow. Woe. Hopeless. Despair. Dejection. Despondent. Down. Tears. Soulless. Void.
Emptiness. Slits. Pain. Loss. Hollow. Worthless. Pointless. Useless. Dead.
I hate him. I love him. Why is he leaving? Why is it so far? Time heals nothing. Time will kill. Time will ruin. Gone. Never again. Heartache. Confusion. Holding on. Alone. It's not fair. I don't understand. This doesn't make any sense. I wish it did. I wish I was dead. I wish I could feel alive again. I wish it didn't have to be this way. This can't be the end. I'm not letting go. I'm not ready for this. Summer save my soul. Swear off love. Reach for love. Sigh. Bleary-eyed. Wonder. Anger. Radicalism. So far away. I can't reach him. Does he know what he's doing to me? He doesn't care. I don't know if he cares. I wish he did. I wish this was over. I wish this wasn't. I just wish he'd finally see. He's too busy for me. I'm inconsequential. Shaking. Stop this. Help. Save me. I'm drowning in my own sorrow. Wallowing in self-pity. It's pathetic. It's all I have. What was I supposed to do when you... What do I say to him now? No. Wait. Don't leave me here all alone. Believe me. Can I come with you? Please. Love me. Don't hate me. Don't forget me. I'll miss you. You're the only one who understands me truly. Listen. Shattered. Disbelief. Nothingness. Without you, it's all meaningless. Faking it so you don't see me crack under those fluorescent lights. I won't say goodbye. Not now. Hold me. Forgive me. I'm asking for you. Don't let go. You're everywhere. I can't breathe. Hyperventilating. Punch pillow. Breakdown. Strangle this pain. Smother me. Addicted. I don't think so. Wrong and right. Lies. Chase. Hunted. Forlorn. Wistful thinking. Smash. Music can't help me where I am. Wake-up call. Days passing too fast. Remembering. Need. Want. Dying. Dreams. Driving me crazy. Nervous. Unfamiliar. Plead. Trying. Raining on my parade. Lover. Desperate. Come back. Terrified. Out of my mind. Not over you yet. Home is gone. Victim. Maybe it's not your fault. Problematic. Counting the days. I used to know you so well. Thoughts. Changes. Meant to stay. Everything I know. Miles away. All that we could be. Final. Decisions. Hazy. Losing. Mine. Take this. How did we get here? Screaming. Read me like an open book. Complex and complicated. Back to then. Fools. See. Laying on the line. Kill me. Truth. Stay for a moment. Sing forever. One. Falling apart. Take chances. Mistakes. Say. You. Me. I can't do this. It's so hard. Hurting. Sure. Insecure. Anxious. The reason. Understatement. Disastrous. Freeze. Imperfections. Deserving. Lifeless. Fathom. Tell me what to do. Rewind. Tired. Catch me. Blackout. Start over. Again. I care. Weak. Worst. Shut up. I'm so sorry.
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Morbida's Mysterious Feelings
Hi, I'm Morbida B. Weir. I got that name from the BEGoths figure series. Anyway, this is where I'll put down whatever I feel like each day. Depending on whether I'm in a crappy mood or not, I'll post my usually elusive feelings... So get reading!
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