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	C0ll3c71v3 VV0rk5 0f l173r47ur3 (collective works of literature) This is mostly a weird form of my thoughts being released. They usually come when i am in a dark mood and i don't want to tell anyone.

	I Am A Fool
	I Am A Fool


I am a fool to think i could change to think that i could be happy and defy the inevitable to think i could have joy but it stands now that i have fallen never to rise because it seems he stopped reviving me i am wasting away at the end of a string he barely seems to hold i seem to matter temporarily if he is mad at her but once they are on good terms i am second, low priority i become worthless, he stops needing me he stops wanting me and starts wanting her i was all set to believe he loved me i was all set to overcome this sickness it is harder than it seems when he stops talking to me to talk with her stops thinking of me to think of her it isn't easy to know you are slowly but surely being replaced by someone you can't even hope to match hoping to mean something to someone you're not even good enough to look at trying against all odds to defy your own value and worth when you have none to speak of trying to feel something better in your life when it hasn't changed at all when the conversation stops and your left with that horrible silence, after he tells you that THEYtook second in a make-out contest and you rack your brain and battered spirit for praise, and false laughter and smiles because what else are you going to say? "you know, it kills me when you tell me that" he'd hate you for that but would you rather be hated, or nothing? how would you like to be forgotten, and unable to forget? how would you like, the only person in the world who makes you happy who YOU NEED to turn on you and tell you " i need HER now" kazuka78 · Thu Jun 25, 2009 @ 08:39pm · 0 Comments


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