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There are things in life i wish i could explain but i know i can't what am i doing........ Sometimes i feel that i'm standing still wil everything around me is moving fairly fast. as i notice things in my life i am the one who isn't moving stuck in one spot. trying to move in everyway. but i'm frozen. there is nothing warm, no light wat so ever.. but wait their is something shining in the far distantce. a small shimer of light slowly walking towards me but still hesitant. As soon as i could move i carefully walk towards the light and eventually reached a door. as i was about to reach for the door knob. i smiled cuz i felt warmth and happiness..... exicted, intrigued, anxious and afraid but as i closed my eyes and continuted to reach for the door knob. when i got to close the door opened and someone was there to give me a warm welcome and a smile. as i entered there light... darkness covered me!!! the door just slamed in fornt of my face.... It's like i got to close and then pushed away..... So, i'm here alone holding on to watever faith and hope i have left. I'm just here waiting. Waiting for you to decide to let me in. I'll be waiting and hoping you'll come back but not everthing last forever... so i'm here and i you know that i am waiting............so don't worry and i'll be waiting for you to find.... I'm hoping, hoping, that you would eventually find your way to me... The path is still hidden but i know you'll get there and i'll be waiting for you to open the door to me. OPEN up!!!! let me in but i won't force the door open and so i sit here and wait.... Just waiting....... here i am waiting... find me please and open the door. .....