Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

I'm not sure what is going on anymore. This past week was strange for me, and I'm not sure what happened, really. Have you ever had the feeling that your world could come crashing down at any moment, and the only thing holding it up are people that you are able to rely on less and less? Well I've lost one person in my life who I care about quite a bit, and I fear that the only other person who can help hold my world up is about to, or has, leave me to be crushed by the weight. I don't want this to happen, I never wanted any of it to happen. If it IS happening, I regret ever telling that person "yes." They know what they mean to me, and know the most secret parts of my past. They know what this would do to me. If it DOES happen...I fear I'll never be the same again. So, if what I fear does happen, goodbye to all of those who know me as I am now. I may not be the same.

Sorry, I know this is depressing, but it is how I'm feeling at this current moment. I hope that you don't read this on a bad day and it makes you feel even worse.